Mu Eesti - My Estonia - Mein Estland

An Exchange Year In Estonia

 
02Dezember
2015

VABALAVA in Germany/ Deutschland

Been so long since I posted here. Now I finally have a good reason! I'm organizing Vabalava in Germany!

For everyone who doesn't know yet whatVabalava is- here is the link to the Facebook page in German. To not-Germans: This post is to you! :D

https://www.facebook.com/vabalava.de/

So Vabalava is quite a thing in Estonia. These concert evenings are basically made of many different artist presenting their acts in a time about half an hour. These may be singers, instrumentalists, bands, dancers, actors... It's a nice chance for especially inexperienced artists who want to stand in front of an audience without having to fill a two hour show and without big promo campagnes. Check out the pages of Vabalava in Estonia (for example Telliskivi) and mine here! :D

03August
2015

A month now - Exchange after Exchange

Oh well, I've been promising a new post and still didn't write it- nearly a month after coming back to Germany. I have to say, I still have a weird feeling here sometimes, but it gets better. I have found new people I like to spend my time with here and I'm busy with traffic school and searching for a job.

But then there's these minutes when you're alone, don't quite know what to do or just feel shit because of every little problem that seemed so beautiful far away during the exchange, these minutes when you think "I just want to have a long talk and a good laugh with Merilyn and a fun night out with Signe and after all Maja still is the one who I have to talkt to during hard periods"

And then you realize that all these people you just spent time with on a usual daily base are far far away. Texting is awful and anyways not the same and even Skype feels weird because after a few minutes you don't know what to tell anymore.

And now the whole thing that everybody was talking about really started: The Reverse Culture Shock. It's weird to hear everyone talk german, it's weird that the living is so different, that my family is so small and kinda unfamiliar... All these little details I never noticed before. I'm kind of lost in a crowd of people sometimes. 

My tip is just: Keep on being busy. Do a lot of things, and if you don't have a lot of things to do, then make lists or timetables about it or do something productive, keep on integrating yourself, meet also new people and not just the old friends, so that you always have something to think about. Because when my mind goes blank, the good life comes back to my memory and destroys my euphoria about being back. But it's important to keep it, just as it was while arriving in the hostcountry.

Cheers!

06Juli
2015

Home?

Being back in Germany should mean being back home, but I don't actually quite feel like it yet. I didn't even unpack my suitcase and packages yet because I just didn't quite arrive yet, if you know what I mean. I guess it will take some time to realize I'm really back... I'll write more later! All the best...

28Juni
2015

Viimane öö

Mäletan kuidas istusin öösel enne Saksamaalt lahkumist oma pimedas toas ja kirjutasin mitte ainult oma selleks ajaks viimast postitust Saksamaalt, vaid ka kirju kõige lähedamatele sõbradele. Ja jälle istun ja kirjutan, nimelt oma viimast postitust Eestist. Kirju sõbradele ma ei julge enam kirjutada; õpisin, et su lähedaimad tunnevad ise et nad on tähtsad, ja kes seda ei tunne see ka ei tunne sind eriti hästi.

Tahtsin kuidagi tänada, aga ei suudagi sõnades väljendada, mille eest. Kõike eest. Selle aasta eest, selle elu eest, palju naermise eest, ilusate hetkede eest, pikkade ööde eest, abi eest, erinevates keeledes rääkimise eest. Nii palju jääks kirjutamatu. Mu eesti ema küsis mis ma Eestis olen õpinud. Eesti keelt, vastasin naljaks. Õpisin nii palju, aga kõik sellel viisil, et ma ei tundnudgi seda. Õpisin et oma pesu ise pesta on palju mugavam. Emme naeras selle üle. Aga teadsime mõlemad, et pesu pesemine pole ainuke asi, millega ma hakkasin iseseisvamalt tegelema. Käisin sõbradega väljas ja tulin õigel ajal koju, tahtsin eesti keelt õppida, leidsin endale vaba aja tegevusi ja nii häid sõpru, et ma ei saa uskuda, et tunneme teineteist alles aasta aega. Mu õde Adel märkas, et ma sain rahulikumaks. Olin aasta alguses mu saksa emaga väga sarnane, pidin alati millegagi tegelema, ei osanud lihtsalt rahuneda ja mitte midagi teha. Viimased päevad pidin pakkima, aga selle asemel lamasin voodi peal ja rääkisin Emme ja Adeliga sellistest asjadest nagu ma praegu kirjutan. Ausalt öeldes ma ka väga ei viidsinud pakkida sest ma ei taha tagasi, aga ma tõsiselt nautisin oma viimaseid päevasid oma eesti perega.

Õpisin Eestis elu armastada. Nii tihti mõtlesin "Elu on nii ilus". Ma pole seda varem kunagi mõelnud. Mõtlesin seda kui tutvustasin oma eesti perega. Kui nägin oma tuba. Kui õpisin Monikaga eesti keelt. Kui Adel hakkas mulle oma päevadest rääkima ja nõu küsima. Kui seisin päikeseloojangul Merivälja muulil ja vaatasin Tallinna. Kui Issi lasi mind ise valida, kuna ma öösel koju tulen. Kui peretuttavad hakkasid pakkuma kas ma olen Alise või Andrese laps esimesest abielust. Kui rääkisin Emmega probleemidest ja rõõmust, Eesti keeles. Kui rääkisin klassi eest eesti keeles. Kui käisin sõbradega öösel vanalinnas, tantsimas, või lihtsalt chillimas. Kui tantsisin esimest korda Contemporary. Kui inimesed hakkasid loomulikult minuga eesti keelt rääkida sest nad teavad et saan aru. Kui kiikisime Tiiu juures. Kui käisime lauatamas. Kui läksime neljakesi matkama, kiikisime ühes talus ja magasime järve ääres. Kui käisime niisama Tartus ja Viljandis. Kui lugesin eesti keelset raamatut ja ei pidanud ühtegi sõna tõlkima. Kui sõbrad räägisid mulle ome muresid, eesti keeles. Kui klassikaaslased kallistasid mind viimasel koolipäeval. Kui istusime kella viieni oma lõpupeol koos. Kui lõpuks märkasin kui tähtsad mulle mõned inimesed on, ükskõik kas suhtlesime palju või mitte. Kui lihtsalt tegin väikest pausi ja nautisin hetke. 

Sõime täna oma perega mu murešokolaadi ära. Mu saksa vanemad kinkisind enne mu lahkumist šokolaadi, mitut tükki iga üks ühte tähega, koos oli kirjutatud "head reisi" saksa keeles. Otsustasin, et sööks aasta jooksul ainult seda šokolaadi, kui mul nii halvasti läheb, et arvan et edasi ei jõua. Sõin ühte tükki kui mu pere läks Türgi ja mina jäin Eestisse, ühte kui pidin Saksamaale minema, ühte kui pidin hakkama pakkima. Täna õhtul sõime ülejäänud tükke ära...

Aitäh selle aasta eest, varsti näeme köik jälle...

22Juni
2015

Pedassaare

We went to Pedassaare for the weekend: An island without electricity and running water :D Our house was basically made of four walls and a sauna, so we slept on the ground, cooked over fire, washed in the sea and as we didn't have enough water we drank rain water. But it was cool, I'd say pretty Estonian: nature and life loving.

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16Juni
2015

SUVI - SUMMER; Curly Strings; Swimming

So much happend and I didn't write about it- just because so much happened! I'm sorry...Now then a more or less compact post about the first part of my short Estonian holidays: three small events. The last day of school, the Curly Strings concert, and my first real summer day including swimming. Here you are! :)

 

The last day of school... Crying in front of your whole grade is no fun people! But everybody was okay with it it seemed, except me of course. We had the aktus, so the ceremony full of more or less good songs and speeches and then everybody went to their classes. As we are the only ones being one grade and not three classes, we stayed in the aula and our teachers gave us our certificates (and I got my First Aid certificate, whoop whoop!!!) and then the studens gave me a bye bye present: A big big picture frame with best memories and signatures of every one. We went outside and ate my cake and so so many people came to say goodbye. Actually I wanted a huge Goodbye Party later this holidays, but I'm afraid it can't be as big as I wanted it to be... But well, here some pics @jenny.subito; instagram

 

On the same evening we went to a Curly Strings concert in Käsmu. It was actually really amazing that the concert was in Käsmu, so many memories... many memories... The concert was cool, you should check them out! It's a really pleasant music mix of folk and more modern styles. 

The stage Remember? Sunset Remember? So cool :3

 

And then on Friday I went to the village of Kelvingi and got my first little tiny sunburn! :D Later in the evening we went swimming for the first time this summer :3

Kelvingi Waaater :3 Kelvingi Kelvingi Kelvingi

 

16Juni
2015

Viljandi

As my friend Hanna lived in Viljandi when she was younger, Merka and she decided to get me there and show me, where the quite famous Viljandi Folk Festival takes place: on the grounds of and around Viljandi's old monastery. Beautiful small city... 

pretty Merka Viljandi Viljandi Viljandi Viljandi Viljandi Make a guess who's who.. Viljandi Viljandi Viljandi Main stage during the festival, Viljandi Viljandi Viljandi Küla kiik :3 <3 Viljandi's art Viljandi We, being lazy

14Juni
2015

A lot's been happening

Little late update in between about the final seminar 13./14.6. in Kurtna.

As in the Post Arrival Camp we spend the last seminar in Kurtna. So many memories connected with that place, it was incredible. It made me notice a bit more how I changed, got more self confident, open, mature. But well, let's not talk about maturity in connection with YFU students, we're crazy as hell when we're together :D

You may remember that we sung "Mu mütsil on kolm nurka" in the beginning camp; the cute thing was, that we sung that again now, and also Curly String's Kauges Külas (beware: it won't leave your head).

Walking to Kurtna Our place shouldn't swim in there ^^ you think that's crazy? we can do better dance like nobody's watching the teamers

09Juni
2015

Raadio 2

Feeling famous because I was having a radio interview with my hostdad at Raadio2 today :D If you want to, listen to Eeva Esse's show (click on her name on 9.6., click on play, if you want to hear my funny german accent Estonian then forward to about 37min :D)

29Mai
2015

Music in Estonia

I'm totally back into music! Thanks to my new teacher. As Estonia is famous (if you didn't know, google NOW :D) their music and especially singing I want to tell you about the great opportunities here. I'm not even sure where to start. First, there are the Vabalavas. There are houses just build to host different artists, no matter if famous or not, and every school, bar, club or whoever is somehow connected to music organises a Vabalava evening at least once a year to invite young musicians to present theirselves. Also there's a lot of small clubs and bars in Tallinn where you would definetely find the possibility to give a concert to get some live-experience with your band. That's just so much easier than in Germany (I guess ^^ noticed the great music scene here so much more)! Next thing is the music schools. You are actually graduating if you're visiting a music school. And then there is Tallinn's music gymnasium, where your main subject is your instrument, you're having music theory lessons, ensamble lessons and so on! You don't believe how much I would give for such a school in Germany, as the only one I found in Berlin was classical (nope don't want that). I will tell you a bit more about the Georg Otsa School. My guitar teacher went there and had his final exam on Monday, where I of course went to listen. The people graduating this school are musical geniuses, writing their own songs for whole bands and so on. And all super young, because they startet their musical education in gymnasium (high school)! However, having a final exam of a music school might seem to be boring, but it wasn't at all- the students gave concerts. The evening was open to listen for everyone, so I listened to the different styles for about three hours. Don't think they played technical stuff and classical music! My teacher for example finished his concert with a great Jimi Hendrix performance. 

I'm so faszinated by the music scene here, and even more sad that it's not that good in Germany- at least not where I live.

23Mai
2015

Tartu II/ Kuldne Karikas

I know I haven't posted for about 2 weeks (just put an older date in the description for a nearly correct order), shame on me, I am really sorry! But somehow I'm nearly never home before 10pm anymore, however I always manage to do this. My dad made a joke that I soon might skip sleeping totally so I could to more things. Because I can sleep later in life, in Germany for example :D

But now I want to actually tell you about my second Tartu trip with my grade and the biggest dance competition Kuldne Karikas.

We went on Thursday, the 21st, to take part in courses organized and given by the Tartu University. I've been in one about Physics and Chemistry, where they showed a lot of funny and really interesting experiments you wouldn't see in usual lessons. Second course was about Semiotics, we had a mini Lithuanian lesson, guessed in what language the songs that were played were (guess who got right at first that Peter Fox does sing in German and guess who was singing Alles Neu for the rest of the day... :D) and analyzed Taylor Swift's music video of Blank Space because there's loads of references to other artists, films, books, fairytales... Quite interesting actually! Watch the video and see how many hints you get!

In the evening we went to the theatre, but I have to admit that I couldn't concentrate at all because it was late, the day long and the air dry and hot... A pity actually, because I became a theatre fan, but I wasn't the only one who didn't get most of it- but at least I stayed.

I stayed in Tartu on Friday with Merka, while the others went back to Viimsi at night. Merka showed me her childhood home in the district of Annelinn and we relaxed in Tartu. 

Merka and her aunt's dog Ruudi in Annelinn so much green everywhere streetart- maybe he doesn't belong, I do. ruins of the Toomkirik inside the Toomkirik summer's near! chillin on rooftops you see that guy down there? think he's okay? crazy stuff :O :D cheating the old days...guess the language of ALL books in the old/former library... every library should look like this with all it's cozy nooks!  Don't waste energy, use and refine it! Beethoven's head (rebuild) Tartu has a lot of lovely street art! that and all the green is missing a bit in the north rocking grandpa my hair is the best part of the pic Hanna <3 dying sunset..

On Saturday we had our final dancing competition, I earlier posted about it too. We won! <3 Soon videos will follow!

13Mai
2015

Viimsi Keskkooli 34. Lend

What seemed like an annoying exercise came out to be a really cool project: we had to make short clips about our grade (lend). Here is my favourite one, you can see all the amazing people from my grade, making every day a bit special :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a6A5WGVvGqY

10Mai
2015

South Estonia/ Riga Trip

Thursday til yesterday- so saturday- was the last YFU trip, well the only one I took part in :D We wen to south Estonia and Riga, with some complications, but summed up it was a nice trip. We could have skipped the night in south Estonia in my opinion (and many others), so we would have had more time in Riga, because it's a pretty city. It reminded me a lot of Berlin, maybe the photos will show you a bit why. I love Rigas charme with all it's parks and old beautiful buildings, but the outer part of the city, where the tourists usually don't hang aroung, was just disgusting. What we saw were big houses so old that you wonder how people could still live in there without the ceiling and walls falling crashing together over their heads. But, less writing, more pics! :) (see the desciptions when you open them)

+Grace Seto Talu Estonian Handicraft Traditional headband for celebrations dolls showing the clothes for different occasions  Piusa sand stone caves  sleeping in another school train was cancelled (+Grace) waiting for the bus instead of train to bring us to Riiga (+Melody) Bored Exchange Students 1h looking for the hostel, 1h looking for food: Hannah is the only happy one :DFOOD glorious food- cold but goodin Rigaold beautiful housesso cutea lot of such nice details there on one of Rigas riverslihtsalt super armas national theater (maybe :D)  Happy FamilyKevad <3 Spring!most famous probablyboat trip for children prices! :3so nice so niceTerviseks! to the last tripproud of this onesame at nightstreetart all overromantic... well, would be :DBremer Stadtmusikanten- whyeverChocolate ShotsLaima chocolate museumwe know how to have fun and Latvians know how to help with it like this everywhere in the city centre as you see, Estonian chocolate is good. Even fake Kohuke in Riga.Orthodox churchstreet art  street art undergroundhihihii :D in the Jugendstil museummarinierte Heringe in old Riganice nicedon't get dizzyin one of the huge parksstill(working) piano in a rockabilly restaurant :3nice ncie

02Mai
2015

Eksamikonsultatsioon

So today was my exam consultation and I am really relieved. I was so nervous, I don't even know why. I think I feared that I set to high aims. But actually, no- I think I can do this exam really good. The importance is not at all so much attatched to the grammar and formal language as I thought. It's more about getting through the situations and being understood, and I'm quite sure I already do good with these points. So now I just keep learning and expanding my vocabulary, so that my language sounds a bit more natural and colourful and I will feel safe during the exam.

27April
2015

LeGoodNews

Yes, the idea for the title is stolen. All german speaking people should - no- HAVE TO check out LeFloid on YouTube, especially his LeNews, because this is one of the best ways on earth to get good news- not always in terms of mood, but definitely quality.

However I actually wanted to say sorry for the last post, Maja told me it seemed kind of depressed, I didn't want to make it sound like this actually :D
So here the "how to make it better": I have a looot to do in the last 2 months of my life eeehm of my estonian year.
Next week I will have my exam consultation. Toootally nervous. I'm learning a lot you can't imagine. I never had to learn so much before because never any exam or test was so important for me.
Then the week after that I'm in South Estonia and Riiga with the YFU people.
After that is my birthday whoohoo. I think only few people know I'm getting only 16 :D
After that my guitar teacher has his final music exam, where I'm gonna go to listen and be proud to be taught by him :D by the way:
Who likes good music should look on YouTube for something like "Pink Floyd Tribute Tallinn" or something, because some years ago the Gustav (or Gustaf? Never remember^^) Adolfi Gümnaasium made this tribute concert in one of the biggest concert halls in Tallinn- and guess who had a great solo. So check this out :D
So and believe it or not, then it's June. Oh somewhen in between I'm in Tartu with the school grade.  And then it's the year's final seminar, two more weeks of summer and... flight to germany :( mixed feelings, as you know!
20April
2015

Nothing is forever

Yes, this headline is so deep you can see Adele rolling in it (don't think I'm funny, I just adore 9GAG). But really, I have some serious stuff for you.

About making mistakes: Here comes pretty much my biggest one.

I surely told you about my ToDo list, all the crazy stuff like being up all night once or watching the sun rise in Tallinn or or or

Well, I did 4 things on my list.

20+ open.

And there's 70 days to go.

Yes, 70. That's freakin NOTHING. I started thinking if I could have done more till now.

I mean don't get me wrong, there was a lot of the "let's not tell anyone" things and there was a lot of great unforgettable moments, but I'm still thinking if there shouldn't be the "crazy shit that you could just do in an exchange year" moment, whatever this would be. Starting point of all that thinking: Me not going to Narva.

There was a free YFU travel to Narva in the very East of Estonia, I think I was the only one not going :D But I have to tell you: I just didn't want to. Seriously, I rather went to school talking Estonian all day than going to more Russian than Estonian Narva with as always hyperactive YFU-people (don't get me wrong, that's cool, but just not always for me..) and talking probably most of the time German, because hey- 23 Germans and like 7 others or so. So I stayed here, going to school, being with "my Estonians", just following my routine. I love every single day, no matter if I just chilled or was in stress or went out with friends. I was sure I would somewhen get to Narva anyways, so I couldn't miss a lot.

BUT NOW THE ACTUAL SCARY PART STARTS. I'm leaving in 70 days. And then there's a lot of time to go before I come back. Before I can do all the things I didn't manage to do in this year. And my mistake: Not realizing that. Feeling like I would have all time here, like I wouldn't ever leave, like I would have time to do everything I want, whenever I want. But it's not so easy. I will leave quite soon and I'm still looking for my unforgettable crazy exchange year story.

I thought I could stay forever, but that's not like this. The exchange year feels like a whole new life, but still- it's just a year. So enjoy every minute. I start having the feeling that leaving Estonia will be harder than leaving Germany.

17April
2015

Moeaken 2015

Yes yes, I'm totally late but I still want to tell you about the evening of Moeaken 2015, the biggest event of our school, where young designers from all over Estonia could present their self-made collections. I think I told you, Maja made a collection herself and I was one of her, well, 'models'. My goodness, she was so nervous it was aweful :D The whole day already she was a mess :D Around lunch we had the stage rehearsal, includig improvising to get some kind of nice order. The stage was pretty cool, just how you would expect it at a fashion show. Then later in the evening we were the first ones to present their collection- nobody knows who did this to us. The hall was full. It wasn't just that people were sitting in the Aula, the big hall for events, no, the doors were wide open and people were whatching from the hallway too. There were s**t loads of people, and I can tell you: While dancing, you don't see anyone, that's why I like it. While walking, you don't know where to look anymore because you see SO MANY familiar faces. And you have to watch serious. Hardest part. But at least Majas collection wasn't soooo serious, we were a bit special, doing crazy stuff and having fun on stage and so on, while most of the others made a pretty serious business out of their show. However, it was a nice show, some really cool clothes were shown, and again I saw how small Estonia is: Because one of the finalists or half finalists or something like that of "Eesti otsib Superstaari" (the germans will know: 1 zu 1 Deutschland sucht den Superstar für Estland) was a model there too. Love Estonia, Love Estonian schools (not the way they study though).

yes I'm tickling Maja's toes :D

Hey let's tell you some Estonian names: Merilyin (okay quite modern), Lilith (same, but a really really beautiful name in my opinion), Kadri (super Estonian, same as Signe- love the name), Jüri (super Estonian), Kristjan (yes, with J :D), Anastasia (more russian though), and well, now you know what names Estonians give to their kids :D

14April
2015

Learning by Heart

Since I spend most of my freetime in school- means math lessons, I know that's not good, but hey, better than sitting in class learning nothing- doing test exams and being nervous about the coming exam, I started learning a lot again.

While learning a language like me you have some phases of learning to pass (at least these were my stages):

-First you're totally motivated, learn a lot by yourself, what seems to make you learn totally fast, what makes you think learning the language is easy done. 

-But then you realize, that that's not all. There's irritating grammar, words and phrases being used differently than you're used to it, and you kind of loose motivation.

-But of course actually you still learn, because the language is all around you (or because you're not as stupid as me and you keep learning on :)) So somewhen there is this point when you realize that you actually get everything you hear. Not every single word of course, you couldn't translate everything exactly naturally, but you get the meaning. So when there really is something left you don't understand at all, you're bothered by it and want to change that nescience- IMMEDIATELY. You so kind of start learning again- but it's less learning basic words, it becomes more and more learning phrases and more complicated or formal words.

I am at this point, that I am getting totally nervous about the exam by now. So I learn a lot again: I'm reading the newspaper, marking words I don't understand, phrases that seem nice, and make notes so that the newspaper is filled with colourful highlightings and translations. Also I'm fighting with grammar: right now with the Osastav, a case wich seems to have no system and regularity. Okay it's not totally like that, but it's definetely that when you made up a rule in your head, in the next second you will find a word that is irregular from that rule. So the goal for now is to get the feeling for the words, what sounds right, what wrong, and to know what possibilities are. 

And you know what? I'm actually having a lot of fun with it again. For pretty long I've been kind of lazy on point of learning, because the words just simply kind of came to me, because I somehow seem to be lucky with languages. But now, as crazy as it seems, learning especially the boring grammar stuff is real fun to me, because I see my progress. 

So if you're doing it right, learning by heart can be near to your heart.

07April
2015

Kuldne Karikas and the mighty spring

On last saturday was the first part of my first Estonian dancing competition, where we participated with our contemporary choreo. Here's the link:

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_eR8_1Y-HAM

I've got to say, I miss dancing disco. The exhaustion is a conpletely different thing and the feeling while dancing with your smallgroup is just still the best.

 

Also, there's more spring-pics, because it seems more and more as if spring is finally winning the battle against the gray and past-winter weather :D

 

Tallinn- the endless beauty :3 somewhere at the coast in Merivälja proud of that one :D mystic, isn't it?

26März
2015

That day

So today was an extremely good day- pushing my mood to the highest level since too long. But what happened? A miracle? Not quiet. The main thing that got all into movement today was my presentation. I think I didn't tell you, but my Support Student Liisa organised me a presentation in front of her class- what meant in front of 45 people, but she didn't tell me that before of course :D So I started preparing my presentation yesterday evening, totally panicing because I forgot about it. So I sat behind my computer for at least 3h, my hostdad behind me always wondering how I could work so long. He's a "I work half an hour, then do a break" worker, I wouldn't ever go back to work if I just stopped.

So however, I went today to Tallinna Inglise Kolledž after being nervous the whole time in school already. Not even the with 82% solved testexam made me feel better then. As Liisa was totally sick, Katariina (another awesome ex-exchange stundent :3) picked me up in front of the school and led me to the room where I would speak. I was expecting an usual classroom, but the thing was called "presentation room" or something fancy like this. Made me even more nervous. When I stepped in, there where maybe 12 people. I didn't expect much more to come, as they all just wrote tests and it was there last lesson. But Katariina just stood next to me, trying to calm me down, telling me that there would be around 45 or 50 people I would be speaking to. What the... I wasn't prepared for that amount of people :D Especially because I didn't know anyone else. But I did my presentation, forgot nearly nothing important, made few funny mistakes and you won't believe me: the class even laughed about jokes and irony :D So super awesome feeling. And they even asked questions, and a lot of them. And not just ones out of pure kindness. For goodbye there was a big applause and a Inglise Kolledž mug for me, letting me leave with an amazing feeling. I told the class that too:

Learning Estonian wasn't and isn't easy. Learning any language isn't easy, and you'll always keep making mistakes. But when you're able to talk to people, to laugh with them and to understand what they tell you in the language in what they can express theirselves the best- you will get the best feeling at all. 

After that I went to guitar lessons. I'm again really happy with them, it's so much fun with my teacher in Gustalf Adolfi Gümnaasium. He's really young, what I think gives us a more relaxed and fun atmosphere while lessons. And out of nothing he told me today he was playing guitar for a famous Estonian musician- Yes, even I knew his name: Karl-Erik Taukar. So, little Jenny is feeling totally cool now :D

The day was completed by some cute good-mood-making messages and a visit at the hairdresser's, so that I feel totally good. Sometimes you just have to overcome some fears, like public speaking, to feel great.

16März
2015

Kallis Kevad - Dear Spring

Finally I am quite sure I can announce: The spring reached Estonia. It's a time of changes. From grey to blue sky, from brown to green trees, from ice floes to sand and stone beach, from winter coat to open jacket, from grumpy fellas to smiling people... Wait, what? Yes, you won't believe me, but people are smiling so much more now. I was walking through Tallinn today, with my guitar in my hand, with the blue sky over my head, sunshine in my eyes, and saw so many people smiling for no reason. Not even looking smiling down on their phone or laughing about someone running against a lamp post because of that. No, smiling out of nowhere. (maybe I just looked good today and they were smiling at me xD- good mood brings too high self esteem :D) I so fell in love with Tallinn, with Estonia and Estonians. I don't want to imagine leaving this all behind, though I have to start getting used to that fact. But I still have the best part left: Spring and summer. So dear spring, thank you a lot for the good mood around everyone, thank you for the nice weather, for the spreading green on the ground and blue in the sky. Thank you for my loads of motivation, creativity and future plans. And thank you for my 7th month in Estonia today, and also my mom's birthday.

YESSSSSSS they're comingKevad Viimsis Merivälja rand just nice :D

13März
2015

Vabalava - Free Stage

Yesterday was the day of the days, the day some friends and me were waiting for for a long time already: VABALAVA. This is another great, in Estonia pretty common school event, where the stage is free (as the name says) for one evening. So whoever you are, whatever you do on stage, you can sign up and have your shining ten minutes in front of the audience. And as I have a friend here who is a professional singer and I always wanted to have a band project, we decided to play two songs: Fall Out Boy's DEATH VALLEY and Ed Sheeran's I SEE FIRE. At least the last one everyone probably knows. So we practiced and practiced, found a girl to play the Cajón and one to play the piano. Everything was cool. Until our singer wrote us two days before Vabalava that she is in bed with 38,5C (idk how to make that little circle before the C since I changed my keyboard to Estonian :D). Also: Who actually wanted to play the piano couldn't come. So two hours before the performance we practiced for the first time all together and the piano girl had to learn everything extremely fast. Yes, our name "The Chaos" suited perfectly. Due to that two things we decided to play only I See Fire. The video of that and the youtube link of Death Valley:

Our "I See Fire" (Sissy, Luisa, Astra and me; filmed by awesome Maja): 

 

And Death Valley by Fall Out Boy: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KqSoHWqWBN0 

13März
2015

Esmaabi kursus - How to safe a life

And again I used a song for my headline, I'm so sorry but this song is stuck in my head and on instand-repeat in youtube. Here it is :D : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kp8v--tkqVA; and the original of course https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cjVQ36NhbMk.

 

So but now the ACTUAL reason of this post. Maybe I told you before, but there are some interesting subjects in Estonia. The first time I realized that in Kõnekunst (smth like speaking art), where we learned how to make argumentations and speeches. Next one was Media. And now Esmaabi- first aid- came in addition. Also I could have chosen 3D animation, I will have a look to that next week. However, I think it's extremely cool that this kind of subjects are for choice here. Especially Esmaabi is a big favourite of mine right now, one of the few subjects where I really work in the lessons :D, because we will get a certificate in the end of the course. Means: easier and faster in driving school, summer jobs and all that cool stuff :D anyways it's good to know what to do in an emergency, just a few weeks ago I saw a man lying somewhere in oldtown, he looked like he was sleeping, but I mean who sleeps in suit and tie? However I was happy that some other people came to help, because I wouldn't have known what to do. So, Estonian school is hard, but in some cases awesome :D

05März
2015

Public English Speaking Competition

Since Merilyn won the school round of the Public Speaking Competition, she went to the National round today, and I had the honor to be her acquaintance. As I didn't know about this kind of competitions before either, I'm gonna explain it shortly: For the school round, 10th and 11th graders where chosen by their english teachers to prepare speeches on the topic "To be ignorant of the past is to remain a child". Well I think this topic was both, really bad and really good at the same- really bad because it's (at least for me) quite hard to understand what should be meant by this phrase, on the other side it's a really good topic, because you can talk about pretty much everything under this topic. Merilyn speech was about travelling and all it's benefits, what I liked a lot of course- would be strange to not agree with what she told as an exchange student :D Because her main message was, that you grow a lot in your personality during travels and you get a lot new skills- I totally agree :D

So today it was time for the National Estonian round. First they were devided in 3 groups of around 12 people, where everybody held the speech he or she also did in school. Half of the people from there got to the next round, with them Merilyn. The next exercise was way more difficult: Pic a topic, 15 minutes to prepare a 3 minute speech. Sounds easy- until you pick the topic "I'm here for the beer". Yes, just that was Merilyn's topic :D But she did good, she made a good curve from "I'm here for the beer" to some peoples careless attitude and the fact that her attitude in this competition isn't at all just "for the beer"- the beer is in this case the London travel the winners does. 

Even though I thought she did at least in this round the best- and that not just because it was my job to be her moral support- she didn't get over the half final. But actually her teacher its pretty much right: As she has another chance in the 11th grade and was already this year so good and complimented, she has even better chances next year. 

In the finals the remaining people presented their speeches from school again. The winner, a girl fromt the Tallinn English Colledge (what a surprise), will fly to London for some days of sightseeing and the International Competition.

I decided to write that much about this day, because I didn't know about this before. I never even heard about this kind of competition in Germany before, what really quite disappointed me. I saw once more, how much better Estonian English education is. 

28Februar
2015

Tasemeeksam

So, a post with some importance again. There's Estonian language exams organized by the Innove Foundation. When you did at least the 3rd level of the exam (there's 4) you could become an Estonian Citizen, but this is already a step further. I want to take this exam, I don't know yet wich level, just for personal reasons. To have a bigger aim for keeping learning, for just knowing your skills, maybe also because it looks quite good when looking for a job or university, and because I believe it's just good thing and feeling. However, here are the links to the Innove Website, the next Exam times and online example tests

27Februar
2015

Lauatamine Soomes - Snowboarding in Finland, Tumblr, THANKS, AITÄH!

So yes, now I can say I am one of the cool kids who know how to snowboard- or at least how to get down a mountain, tied on a snowboard, without falling and with some speed. I wouldn't actually call it more yet :D As you know I snowboarded and anyways had the first winter sport experience ever after Christmas at Valgehobusemägi, so that after our week in Finland I had around maybe 5 days of practicing, so that I am quite proud of what I accomplished. I also learned quite something about myself, for example that I'm really ambitious (okay knew that before too, but-), in Finland I was especially on the first days so ambitious, that I forgot how okay it is to not be good. Just on the last day I actually made it up the hill with such a T-Lift (you get a little seat or T-formed -for two people- lift between your legs and it pulls you up the mountain on your board), what made me quite a bit depressed at first. The first day I actually snowboarded only maybe 3 or 4 times because I spent the rest of the time walking up the slopes and trying not to care about my hostdad and sister racing along next to me. So I learned that I am actually often too ambitious. I wanted and expected too much and spent more time in a bad mood then neccessary. It came to my mind that I had these situations often before, always when things didn't work out how I expected them to. I get frustrated and want to give up. Good thing (always try to find your positive qualities! ;) ) is, that I usually don't give up. Just like on the hill, I took the same slope a whole day because there was a comfy chair lift. It was quite a difficult slope for the very beginning, so that I fell a lot, not really painful but still frustrating. But you know what? On the last day I fell maybe 4 times in 6 hours. And this was mostly because I was always afraid to rush into smal kids. So, end of the story: Know your weaknesses and know how to fight them.

No pictures of me in grandma Tiiu's sexy blue onesie with what I totally rocked the slopes, sorry.

Aaaaalso, spring is coming, the snow is melted, the sun is shining pretty much every day and I'm totally in the mood for some nice pictures, so be prepared and keep watching out on Tumblr (right now are the newest pics still from my parent's visit, more follows). As you see (if everything works out how I wanted :D) I changed the look of this blog so that the winter mood is getting away :D

Last point of this post: AITÄH! SUUR SUUR ÜLISUUR AITÄH. Just for reading my blog, because I had more that 5800 clicks now, what is a lot I think. And if I can trust the flag counter, there were visitors from China (my hostsister was happy about that- she wants to go to China for a year and already learns the language. Btw: She's 13 now :D. If someone from China connected with exchange reads this: CONTACT ME PLS :D), visitors from the USA, New Zealand, India, and so so many other countries. I would have never even dreamed about the thought that someone could actually google "exchange year blog" and eventually end up reading mine. By the way, I get some of the things shown what are googled and lead people to my blog- funny stuff was there :D My favourites: "rossmann in estland" and "don't care what people think about you" Nice nice, folks :D

09Februar
2015

Keskaastaseminar - Mid Year Seminar

So last weekend we had our Mid Year Seminar- even though it feels like we just arrived here yesterday. I wasn't really looking forward to it, because we slept in a school on the floors and I anyways have contact with some of the exchange students, so that I didn't think it would be so special to see them all again. But it was so awesome, I haven't seen some of the students for the whole exchange year or just once or twice, so it was nice to have a little talk and even bigger laugh with them. Also we of course had the usual "is your family nice do you have friends how's your Estonian"- workshops, but this time they were really cool, because we had Estonian language groups, that did the three workshops in Estonian and not English. And also I realized once again how freakin lucky I am, because not everybody was happy with their families, not everybody has friends- still even. We also did a language test which I did really good, so I'm highly motivated to get my Estonian more fluent :D With what I'm at the second topic of this post:

In school we're finally again more into Estonian- so that we're mostly talking in Estonian again, even though I'm quite sad that one of my best friends is talking so extremely much English with me. But I kinda gave up on telling her, because I know she just likes to tell me things, so okay :D

Today in school I had this funny and really motivating experience: At the moment I'm preparing a book presentation in Estonian, and today I showed the Slides to my teacher so that she could correct mistakes with me. First she was extremely surprised that I did it so well at all, then we even talked a bit- and finally some of the people of my grades, who I really quite never be with or even see, heard me talking and understanding and looked so surprised that they directly started talking to my how nice and fast and whatever. Feels just great to see how amazed people are by my progress. So, a lot of motivation here, let's see how it gets :D

05Februar
2015

Päike - Sun <3

After a time that felt like years there finally was proper sunshine today, better said: still is! I came out of the school building and couldn't even see properly, because it was so bright :D haha yeah it's a hard life in Estonia :D but here are sunlight picture at the pier





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01Februar
2015

It's time

Oh yes, after the last depri-post it's something new needed here :D So I'll show you some pics from my parent's visit here. As always, there will be more later on Tumblr, but it will take some time, I'll remind you again later :) So here are some of the pics:

Air Baltic Bombardier :D My mum and me in Cafe MUSI- yes, my nose looks like I was Rudolph the red nosed reindeer there :DStreet to the old market, Olde Hansa etc  Lühike jalg at night Neitsitorn at night Beautiful Tallinn One half of my śchool in Viimsi, by the way :D My mum: Oh see, they have 250m high ducks here! :DD In Kadriorg Everybody loves flowers! My youngest hostsister and me :) Vabaduse Väljak- So much pride in one picture :DViru gate  Punk's not dead- under the earth in the catacombs of Kiek in de kök From Kiek in de kök tower Way back to Germany

21Januar
2015

Exchange in exchange - to germany...

So this post will have three parts, one "before", one "hope" and one "after" part. Though I'm not even sure if I'm allowed to write about it. As it's a quite personal post (so treat it like this please) and you know I anyways always write a lot, I'll mark you the most important parts in colour, so feel free to skip the details if you want to. 

Als erstes mal: Entschuldigung an die jenigen von meinen Freunden in Deutschland, denen ich das nicht vorher oder persönlich gesagt habe. Ich habe ausser meiner Familie nur zwei Leuten von meinem Deutschlandaufenthalt erzählt. Ich hielt es einfach für schlauer, es nicht allen zu sagen, weil ich 1. aus familiärem Anlass gekommen bin und 2. nicht wollte, dass das "oh wir haben uns so lange nicht gesehen, lass uns mal treffen"  losgeht... 

Starting now with the "before" part of course.

What I'm talking about is that I will go to Germany for a week, what is actually just in special cases allowed. So I'm gonna be together with my german family for some time. The whole family, what doesn't make me feel really good.

For me it doesn't seem like I haven't seen them all for so long, but in reality it's been now nearly five months. I didn't have contact to most of my family, except my parents and sister. I feel foreign in the thought of being together with all of them like it was normal. I don't belong there right now. There will be so many people I knew forever, but don't actually have a clue about them. It would take some time to get back into there again, but a week is too short. So I'm afraid to just feel like a stranger, while everyone else feels so familiar with me.

We saw some series of "The 4400" today, about some people who lost their minds (more background doesn't matter now) and came after a few years back into their families. Everybody remembered them though a lot has changed in their lives, but the ones remembered nobody. I feel a bit the same. Yeah it's extreme to compare this, but see: I'm so used to all this here. This is my familiar surrounding. I live here, not in Germany anymore. Here are my people. Most memories on Germany are faded away, would need to be freshed up. But this would mean the Estonian ones fade. And I don't want this. I want to and will come back here, because I love it.

And I feel a bit ripped out of it, because I'm of course having intensive contact to germany since some weeks, never get a rest of it because I also had a lot of stuff to do with YFU and so on. I'm standing between Germany, where I come from but actually have no clue where my place is there, and Estonia, where everything is clear for me. It's like I'm going on exchange in an exchange, just the reason is a worse one this time.

I hope I don't hurt anyone with what I'm writing, I really love my German family and friends.

But it's so so far away, in every meaning.I never planned on going to Germany till my year here is over. Probably even then I don't want to leave, but then it's planned. What I'm having now is the worst thing that could happen, I never thought it could come to me like this. I know there are a lot people out there who had to cancel their exchange whyever and went back to their homecountry, if they wanted or now. But this here is worse for me. I never wanted to have my thoughts a lot in Germany while I'm here, because I knew it would cut me off my life here.

I experienced that before, the more you think of whats far away, the worse gets your mood. And this of course annoys people. Of course I'm now already at the point that I can be sure that my friends here understand me and help instead of just being annoyed by it. But I'm so afraid of the point when they don't believe me anymore that I want to be here even though my thoughts are a lot in Germany. Sometimes in the last time I already feel like my little hostsister is a bit annoyed by my - I have to admit - bad mood. And soon not even just my thoughts are in Germany, but the whole of me.

Probably especially this first part (wich was already way to long, sorry) doesn't make much sense, but I think this shows you even better how shitty (excuse me) it feels to have to go to your homecountry while your exchange. This was my worst fear. I hope that you don't have to do the same or at least won't feel the same.

At this point I really want to thank the people from my grade here. When they got to know I would go to Germany, oh my got you should have seen their faces. They understood I'd go for ever. Oh my got the looks they gave me nearly made me cry. It was this totaly honest "oh my god what happened so worse that you're LEAVING US"- look, and when I told them I'd OF COURSE come BACK to Estonia it was the totally reliefed "thank god"- look. And I'm so thankful for that. You make me feel so home here, people, I love that.

 

Now the "hope" part. 

I hope that this trip will help me making a sharp cut with this topic. I want to clear up, want to finish my thoughts about Germany, so that I can enjoy my time here again. I hop that when I come back, my feelings will be clear. 

 

The "after" part.

My hopes were totally right and fulfilled, my fears just in parts. It felt so good to be with my german family. Because in the end, no matter how close you feel to your family and friends abroad, the people where you come from you know longer and better.

At the same time I experienced how much my exchange really changed me. I didn't notice the actually big differences before. So being back in Germany, back in my real family I was a bit overstrained, so I actually kind of flew into different activities...

After the week in germany we came together for a few days to Estonia. It was actually really fun to guide my parents like little tourists through Old Town :D But it was also a bit tiring in the end, because I am so used to all this here, especially the language became so usual, so that it was really hard to handle german, english and estonian at once.

But it was so good to see my german and  estonian family talk and laugh together, it made me really proud.

But now I have to be honest: I'm happy I can continue my year here now in peace. 

 

As you see, my after part is way shorter then the before part- which is a good thing, because it means, that things are clear with me now.

12Januar
2015

Für Elli - For Elli

Today it's gonna be a german post - again after some really long time - to a girl from who I didn't expect any mail at all and just got one of the cutest late-christmas parcels. Here it is (the guardian angel is already on my key ring, the Christmas deco ball thingy is already sparkling under the lamp at my bed, the letter is already on my desk waiting to be answered and the sweets are already eaten):

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Also Elli, hier ist der nächste Blogpost, nur für dich! :D
Nach meinem Brief an meine Klasse in Deutschland im Oktober (?) ohne weitere Antwort außer ein paar Mails mit Elli hatte ich eigentlich kaum noch eine Antwort in welcher Weise auch immer erwartet. Und dann hole ich heute ein Paket von der Post ab und sehe...? Richtig, ein Päckchen von Elli! Wie ihr oben sehen könnt war das unglaublich süß verpackt und so schöne Sachen waren drin! Neben deutschen Süßigkeiten, die eh immer alles tausendfach besser machen, war da ein Schutzengel, der schon die halbe Welt gesehen hat, eine Weihnachtsbaumkugel von unserer Klassen-Weihnachtspalme von vor zwei Jahren und ein Briefchen.  Ich habe mich so so sehr über diese kleine unerwartete Aufmerksamkeit gefreut! Und da Ellis letzter Satz im Brief war "ich warte schon gespannt auf den nächsten Blogeintrag..."- nunja, hier war er! :)
07Januar
2015

Musculus Estonianus - How to walk on ice

The weather here in the last time was... Let's call it special. First beautiful loads of snow, then over it rain, and now again freezing cold. So the streets and sidewalks are frozen and you need the double of the usual time for every way.
Yesterday I was walking home with a girl from my school, wondering how easily she walked over the ice, while I was struggling to hold myself on my feet. She told me about the "special extra muscle Estonians have". A muscle in the knees as it seems :D

So here's how to use this muscle and walk on ice, it works out :D :
You have to bend your knees a bit and aaaaalways tense your legs. I don't know, might look funny, but less funny as falling :D
04Januar
2015

More Tallinn

Today I went to Old Town with Lea, actually to take pictures of snowy Tallinn at sunset. But of course the weather didn't change for two or three days at least now, so it was so cloudy and stormy that there was zero chance to see the sunset. But I think the pics are still quite cool, check our the rest a few days later on Tumblr. The blog is posting two pics a day so it might take a bit time :) Hope you enjoy! :)

The times we had. - In Tallinn. Tallinn at night

01Januar
2015

Aastavahetus - Silvester - New Year's Eve

Maybe you remember- we were in this fancy kinda SPA hotel thingy on Saaremaa, together with like seven 'tennisfamilies'. It's cool thing, by miracle in every of these families from around Tallinn both parents play tennis and have at least two children, that were running around the hotel having a bigger party then their parents. These families are really awesome, I mean the adults of them. I went with my hostpartents and the other partents to dinner and later to some really cozy Vinothek (translator says its's "wine collection"; sounds wrong :D a place where you can have great wine in a comfy atmosphere. Best thing actually was, that we were talking Estonian all the time. I don't know exactly how and when this happend, but with my hostfamily I anyways mostly talk in Estonian, so it was just natural to also talk to the others in Estonian. And gosh that made me proud. Not just that I had actual conversations in Estonian, but also people were always like "oh god your Estonian is so good, I can't believe you're here for just not even five months" and were cute as hell talking to me. Some who I didn't personally talked to started making assumptions if I was maybe Andres' or Alis' child of the (not existing) first marriage, because everyone knew Adel and Monika, but not me of course. It was such a good feeling, everytime Alis came grinning to me after a talk I already knew she heard a knew funny theory about me. One woman even asked me, if I came for an exchange year because I'm actual Estonian. Read that over and over. Amazing :D So that pushed my self confidence extremely. About the rest of the Aastavahtus is not actually too much to say I think- I believe you all know how the usual celebration is going. Big difference for me:

I was with my new family, hugging and kissing and screaming and laughing and having fun and being so close like we knew each others for years. So so so so great.

Head uut aastat

(more pics will follow at http://rplmedia.tumblr.com/ :))

01Januar
2015

Tähtis - Important

Oh you know what I just saw? täht (star); tähtis (important) that connection is cute. ^^

Anyways, the actual topic of this post should have been, that I forgot an extremely important thing in the Christmas post. Came to my mind shortly.

That thing: On Christmas we went to the graveyard with Tiiu. I think I've never been to a graveyard on Christmas, especially not at night. We went after church to visit Tiiu's husband. She told us also some family stories, how the house she lives in was a present for a relative who served in the war. It was a proud story, a sad one, a patriotic one, a good one. The graveyard around us looked amazing. There was nothing of the scary graveyards of the movies. First difference is anyways, that Estonian graveyards are pretty much always just somewhere in the woods, not with a fence and a special order for everything, things are just how they are and the graves stay forever. And it was so beautiful, so reverend. All around us in the dark were candles light up, thousand little sparkles in the woods. I think I've never seen a thing that is so sad and so beautiful at the same time. Take a little time for your loved ones, for your friends, for your family, if close or not. Take a little time and light up their souls again- even if just with a little candle.

29Dezember
2014

Achtung Schleichwerbung - Hidden advert :D

Yes, this is pretty much an advertisement, sorry :D, but I can just recommend you to check out this tumblr blog in the next days and general the future. There will be some of my pictures posted, also great photos from travels all around. Just have a look at the pics, also the old ones, and enjoy yourself! :)

28Dezember
2014

Tallinn's beauty

I took some sunset pictures of Tallinn from Pirita about a month ago. Now I can show yoou the pic's, because they were kind of a Christmas present for my perents :D So, here they are :)

Also before Christmas I went out to take some snowpictures- it was quite grey, but I think it looks cool anyways :) :

28Dezember
2014

Jõulud - Christmas - Weihnachten

Our Christmas were really phantastic. We spent the actual Chrstimas day, the 24th, at grandma Tiiu's place near Jõgeva. We had a nice cozy afternoon and evening together. Together, that means 11 people, 3 dogs and a scared cat in one small woodhouse, warmed by the big chimneys in every room. We ate around half past three, a quite strange time I have to say, but I didn't mind, because as Tiiu is a grandma and a really cool one too, the food was great. We had of course the classical Christmas food- Verivorst, ahjukartulid, hapukapsas, pohlamoos, praad... So much good stuff, the big Christmas eating should never end. And it didn't end- of course there were one dessert after the other and lots of cookies and chocolate all over the house.


Christmas tree - JõulupuuMuffins :3


 


At six we went - I hope you can feel my surprise - to church. It was a small old village church, were people were even so nice to watch the church service standing so that we could sit. The service was quite good, though it was hard for me to understand what the priest said. We sang, prayed, watched a roleplay and some singers - it was a pretty cute thing.


Church - Kirik


 


Back at Tiiu's we all came together in the living room, sitting with five people on a three-person-sofa, chilling on the floor and piled over each other. Tiiu diappeared into the kitchen and came out a minute later, a red and white Christmas cap on her hat and told us, Jõuluvana was so busy tonight, he sent her down to spread the presents. So she did. But we had to present something to get our presents, what of course nobody quite liked, but still did because it was fun. I saved myself with a german poem, which just Tiiu and I understood, and singing Jingle Bells with my hostsister Adel. I was so happy this evening, because though I wished for nothing, I got so many cute and valuable things. The probably nicest thing was, that we didn't write the names from the ones who made the presents, not as we usually did it in my family in Germany. This is so cool, because the whole evening, and even still now, everybody is wondering who made their presents. And you can't imagine the feeling, when you hear your hostsisters discussing, who made them their presents, because they liked them so much, and you think by yourself 'yup that was me^^'. Goal.


After the present sharing and some Glöggi the family of my hostdad's sister left, because they live closer, so only my family and Tiiu were in the house over night. On the next day we tried the brand new giant swing. This thing is so awesome. As I told you: Tiiu rocks :D


Swing - Kiik (Tiiu also on it btw :D, I took the pic) Musi Frozen


We left to Nelijärve in the afternoon. We rented a house in the woods, a really basic thing with one room and bathroom, but we anyways actually just used it for sleeping. What we did the rest of the time? Enjoyed the snow! :D There was a lot of it, so we went sledding, sking, snowboarding- The first time in my life I stood on a snowboard :D We went to Valgehobusemägi (white horse's mountain), what is less a mountain but a hill. At least as long as you look up - as soon as you look down from the top, tied to a snowboard, it seems bigger than the Alps. But I'm quite proud of myself: of course I fell a lot of times - what actually hurts less than the way up with the lift - but I also made some huge progress I think. Of course I'm everything but ready for the holidays in ferbruary in Finland, but at least I'm a bit prepared. 


Winter - Talv Valgehobusemägi Yes, the retro overall is great :D Tiiu's btw ^^Bad quality - nice familyTalv 


Back home in Viimsi we sent my hostdad to play Tennis and made a probably quite classical Estonian Ladie's night- we went to the sauna and made my hostmum our beautyqueen. The girls reading this can maybe imagine how cool and fancy it feels, when your hostmum offers you ten and more different lotions, shampoos, conditioners, saunamasks, peelings... Everything, it was awesome :D My hostsisters went into the snow to cool down afterwards, I didn't dare because I have a cold again... But this evening was really great, feeling fresh and totally relaxed, later I talked to my parents in Germany - A really cozy time.

23Dezember
2014

Tote Oma/ Verivorst

Don't worry, no granny died. "Tote Oma" (Dead Granny) is, whyever, a german word for bloodsausages, but not in shape of a sausage but as mash kinda stuff. Why I tell you that? Because Verivorstid - Bloodsausages - are part of the Estonian Christmas food. So as potatoes, pumpkin salat and pohlamoos (I don't know what kind of berry pohla is, but moos means marmelade. And together with verivorstid it's absolutely amazing yum yum delicious). We ate that traditional Christmas dish today on Christmas eve at home with my hostfamily. I'm sure I'll eat it again at grandma's place tomorrow. I thought, and my hostfamily asked, if we germans have some traditional Christmas dish. I actually have no clue. I think it quite depends on the family and region. My family in the very east of Germany and many others too eat potatosalat and sausages for Christmas, added to that of course a huge lot of other food. But all this is not special Christmas stuff as it is here, we eat it all over the year. My hostmum said today, that verivorst and especially pumpkinsalat tastes only good in Christmastime. 

I will spend Christmas and Newyear away from Viimsi. Christmas at the Grandma's in Jõgeva, after that we go to some house in the woods - don't ask, I don't know more :D - and Newyear will be spent with some other family together in a SPA hotel I think on Saaremaa. Fancy fancy :D Means: I won't post next time, I wish you all merry merry Christmas and a very happy New Year. 

HÄID JÕULE - FROHE WEIHNACHTEN!

22Dezember
2014

Öööööööö

Öö really is an estonian word: night.

One evening I went to take photos of the Christmasmarket and Tallinn at night. It was extremely beautiful, but my camera has some kind of disease or decided to hate me, which was the reason for it to take pictures in a quite bad quality and made me hurry, because the batteries ran out... :/ But here are the pics I made:

Tallinnas Tallinnas Vana Linn Olde Hansa Olde Hansa &co Raekoda Christmaslights Jõuluturg Jõulupuu (yes, puu means tree) lava jõuluturul nii armas, so cute jõulupuu II. Jõuluturg ja raekodaSame here Jesus story Riigikogu Aleksander Nevski katedraal Yeah, night, I think it's Toomkirik First and last nightshot at the lookout my cam took...

22Dezember
2014

I give up

Okay I'm sorry I give up, I think I made a mistake somewhere with the calenderpics. :D

Nevermind, Häid Jõule! :D

20Dezember
2014

20. Detsember

20.12.

20th December

Schaukelpferd/ rocking horse/ kiikhobune

Krippe

19Dezember
2014

19. Detsember

19.12.

19th December

Mond/ moon/ kuu

Old Town

18Dezember
2014

18. Detsember

18.12.

18th December

Stiefel/ boot/ saabas

Tallinnas

17Dezember
2014

17. Detsember

17.12.

17th December

Lokomotive/ locomotive/ vedur

Olde Hansa

16Dezember
2014

16. Detsember

16.12.

16th December

Schneemann/ snowman/ lumememm

Jõuluturul

15Dezember
2014

15. Detsember

15.12.

15th December

Schleife/ bow/ vibu

 

By the way Lucky's 6th Birthday :D 

Lucky, the most beautiful dog in the world :D

 

14Dezember
2014

14. Detsember

14.12.

14th December

Motorrad/ motorbike/ mootorrattas

Jõuluturul

13Dezember
2014

13. Detsember

13.12.

13th December

Sterneschnuppe/ falling star/ langev täht

Noortekeskuses

12Dezember
2014

12. Detsember

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12th December
Auto/ car/ auto

Well I'm sorry for breaking my promise of sharing my Adventskalender, but I have to admit: there was just too much to do. So I'll make the posts for the last days now and post a nice pic for every day. Here you are :D


Tallinn at night

11Dezember
2014

11. Detsember

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11th December
Feuerwehrwagen/ fire engine/ tuletõrjeauto

Today I bought the first real Christmas presents, and I am so happy about it. I found some really nice things. Now I just have to find out how to get the ones for the germans in the cheapest way to them :D
10Dezember
2014

10. Detsember

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10th December
Walnuss/ walnut/ pähkel

Did I actually tell you about my estonian dream? I think I didn't. So I will now.
Though I still sadly don't use estonian very much yet, more but not mostly, I had a dream in estonian at the weekend. It was a nightmare tho, a quite bad one because it seemed so real, but it was in estonian. Only two sentences, but still I'm kinda happy :D
I was dreaming I woke up, which made it so scary, and someone sat next to my bed on the floor, the window open, curtains flying, the basic horror stuff. I asked IN ESTONIAN who there was. After that the creepy unproportional human kinda thing jumped on my bed, said a bit to me and strangled me.
Yeah, nice dream, whatever lead to that, but it was in estonian so... whoop whoop :D
09Dezember
2014

9. Detsember

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9th December
Schlittschuh/ ice-skate/ rulluisk

Making presents makes happy, buying presents hurts. I realised that once more. I don't know why and on what, but I spend a lot of money here, so that my bank account is already again close to emptiness. And it's Christmas time, so I have to buy a lot of presents and send part of them to germany, which is quite expensive... really don't like spending so much money, but seems like I have to, somehow, because I love making presents.

08Dezember
2014

8. Detsember

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8th December
Haus/ house/ maja

Today was a very good day. It's amazing how one person can change your mood quite a lot, so I actually feel pretty good, I feel like I have more power (I won't take over the world domination, no worry), even though I'm more sleepy than ever. I told some people today to try to talk mostly in Estonian, which even worked out quite good I think. You can't imagine the absolutely adorable reactions of some people hearing you saying something estonian for the first time :D so I'll tell more and more people to switch back over to estonian and just hope it will work out good. I hope everyone has enough patience with me, because I probably won't have that and will need someone to help me pushing myself forward. I finally quite stopped worrying about my language progress, because I'm actually pretty proud at the moment, which is mostly because people just don't stop motivating and cheering me up. Thanks to all, I believe I can realise my New year's  resolution.
07Dezember
2014

7. Detsember

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7th December
Trompete/ trumpet/ trompet

Today was a quite lazy day, til Merilyn came over in the late afternoon. We build this gingerbread house that my parents sent me and went to the school dancing later.


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06Dezember
2014

6. Detsember

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6th December
St Nikolaus

I don't know if you know the tradition of St Nikolaus, but I will tell you.
Nikolaus was a priest who lived long long time ago where today Turkey is. He inherited lots of money from his parents, which he gave all to the poor. The German tradition is, to clean your shoes (or boots-it fits more in them ^^) on the evening of the 5th December and put them outside. If you were good in the passed year, you get some presents and sweets. If you weren't, you get coals or branches.
Of course I tried to bring that tradition to my hostfam, which was sadly not so successful, because nobody wants to clean their shoes of course :D
05Dezember
2014

5. Detsember

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5th December
Engel/ angel/ ingel

After our media classes in 8./9. lesson were (luckily) skipped because nobody knew where the teacher was, I went to Tallinna Noortekeskus in the evening. There was a Christmas event, where people from different nations presented their traditions and made typical Christmas food. It was really nice and interesting, because there were people from of course Germany and Estonia, Switzerland, Jordan, Brazil, Spain, India... all over the world! It was an awesome and funny evening, a good start for the weekend :D
04Dezember
2014

4. Detsember

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4. December
Birne/ pear/ pirn

Today was my shortest school day, followed by the longest Friday ever-9 lessons. Today's motto was nerd, really fun :D sadly not that many people joined and came in costumes today.
Today I wrote to my school in germany. I kind of hope that they will film the Christmas church service for me, because it became an important and beautiful part of my Christmas time. I realise more and more, that it actually really makes a difference if you're on a Christian school or not. I wouldn't say it made me Christian, but I would say it made me more thoughtful. Starting with morning prayers for people in need ending up with understanding other religions better. Sometimes this kind of thinking is missing here, things are under stress and there's not much time to think about the world and your place in it. It may sound strange, but it's a different way of socialising - not better, not worse, here it's just more... success oriented I think. Seems like Christmas holidays are more just another break from school- with presents and a new year's party in between. But this ain't gonna happen this year, not with me- it's gonna be Christmas with lots of eating and relaxing :3
03Dezember
2014

3. Detsember

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3rd December
Glocke/ bell/ kell

Todays motto in school: movie characters. I was the lion king and pretty proud of my outfit, because I struggled yesterday night through my room to find anything usable. Just the others didn't recognise me, but nevermind :D

I have the feeling that Merilyn is reading my blog, because she starts telling people to talk in Estonian to me and answers in Estonian as soon as I use it also, no matter if its just something small like "Miks?" or whatever simple thing I often use. That's great actually! Like this I don't feel like torturing people with my bad Estonian when I try to react.

One thought I had today after dancing lessons.
We did a new routine, with very smooth movements, which I just totally failed to do. I put the fault to  Disco Dancing, where actually everything is about a quite straight and tight back. Merilyn told me to "just put it off", but do you know how hard that is? I thought about habits, getting rid of them and if it's actually good to get rid of them. Habits are just something that makes you somehow feel comfortable, it's the easiest way of doing something. Maybe because you learned it like this and just can't turn it off so fast, because you're so used to it, because it's part of your actual personality or because you're just lazy. I think for me it's especially a mix of laziness/powerlessness (is there a word like this? You know what I mean :D ) and impatience. I have the will to change a lot, but not the power. I see the reason to work on it, but don't have the patience to hold on. I know it's sometimes just better to go a new way, but I'm too lazy to go it because I know the old one is nice also.
I remember exactly that I wrote in my YFU application, that I hope the exchange year will make me more patient. I am more patient with others. But not with me.
02Dezember
2014

2. Detsember

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2nd december
Present/ Geschenk/ Kingitus

In our school is Stiilinädal this week, so there's a different motto to dress up on every day. Yesterday it was hawaii, but I stayed home. Today it was pyjama, which caused thousands of pillowfights, no, pillowwars :D
Sad fact of the day: as our timetables change nearly every month and I now have lessons on Tuesdays til 4, I can't go to riding lessons on Tuesdays anymore... I'm gonna think if I should do some other sport on that day on my own maybe instead, because I realised today that I need more physical activity. I helped my hostdad today outside with some work and noticed, how good it was for me. So: more moving and being outside againt winter-mad-mood! :D
02Dezember
2014

Peale Kahte

Peale Kahte

Merilyn from my grade wrote a post on her blog about me. :D Darling, you make me feel famous and special!  :D ♡

01Dezember
2014

1. Detsember

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1st door: Tannenzapfen/ fir cone/ käbi


Today I finally got my parcel after some struggle. These struggles were actually quite good, because they forced me to go outside, which I wouldn't have done because I stayed home instead of school today. It looked amazing outside. Snow is laying all around, thank god its still covering the ice under it so I'm able to walk without falling. This will change soon, I swear. I hope someone takes a pic of my first falling. In the air was glitter. It was no snow, you could only see it in shining light, it was like it was sparkling around me. -15ºC can be so beautiful.

01Dezember
2014

Let's share an Adventskalender

However this is in english, I won't call it like this, because I think everybody can figure out theirselves what an Adventskalender is. Lets share some German langauge. Let's share an Adventskalender.

So again I got an awesome package from Germany today, full with stuff I can't write about yet because I'm afraid the people who will get these things will read this. But I can tell you, I got a Milka Adventskalender, and realised once more: Time is running. It's December 1st. I still don't speak Estonian. Yeah, still my worst problem. I just have no clue what to do about it, maybe I should start with stopping worrying about it.

But I also had a pretty good idea, I think it is pretty good. I want to share my Adventskalender with you, so I'll post a pic of my new opened door every day and write some senseless stuff about it. As always, you know. I thought I should be a bit more active in this blog again, wich I think I wasn't in the last time, because I weather had no time or things are just becoming to normal for me. So I will start writing a bit every evening til Christmas, in hope that I'll find a good middle between "oh my god she writes so much about nothing again" and "oh my god she should really tell us more". 

Let's hope for the best, ich wünsche allen eine gesegnete, angenehme Adventszeit! (No clue how to translate that and also don't want, google translate may help, sorry :D)

30November
2014

Advent, Advent

Actually I don't have that much to say, better said: I had a lot to say today, but forgot all the good things again. 

I spent the weekend/ saturday and today with some exchange students because we celebrated Leas 16th Birthday  - oh dear I think I'm the only 15 year old now, but nevermind, most people think I'm older :D We had a fun time, now I'm home again and just realised, that it's the 1st Advent today. I was thinking about if we somehow celebrate the Advents or if we have some kind of tradition in Germany, but the only thing that came to my mind are the four candles, one for every advent, that be burn then. Oh and:

Advent, Advent, ein Lichtlein brennt.

Erst eins, dann zwei, dann drei, dann vier,

Dann steht das Christkind vor der Tür.

21November
2014

Lumi ja Jõuluturul - Snow and at the Christmasmarket

On Friday after PE lessons I saw it: The first snow. For about 4 hours it was snowing continuous, so that we had about 10cm, if not even more, of nice fluffy white powder snow. Also the Jõuluturu at Raekojaplats in Tallinn opened. The pictures are not really good, I'll take better ones soon. Nevermind :D

LumeMusi :D  Raekojaplats Jõuluturul Jõulupuu  Jõuluturul Olde Hansa

19November
2014

That moment, when...

by Jenny the always-to-much-writer feat. Lea the from-Grace-stealer (yes, that was extremly german :D)

 

Probably gonna add some things once in a while in this post, just really like it somehow. Additions are on the end and always with a blank line in between. Give me your ideas also :)

 

That moment, when...

... the traffic lights are showing you the seconds till the next phase change.

... you are waiting at a traffic light for 10 minutes because you forgot to push the botton.

... you run into an automatic door, because they just never open completly.

... you start paying even a 30ct Kinder Chocolate bar with your credit card.

... your hostparents are totally okay with you staying out really late, as long as you tell them. Young people are getting independent much faster here.

... people are drinking on parties like alcohol was coke, though it's just allowed from 18 and you can't buy alcohol at night. Yes, it's quite awful to write these two moments after each other.

... you suddenly have problems with the softer spelling of most of the letters, wich makes my name for example sound like Senny or Zenny or Šenny or something like that.

... you start missing all the graffities on every housewall.

... you even have free WiFi on a rock at a beach in a little fisher village in the middle of nowhere.

... you finally find out, that your Physics teacher was sending you all the lesson's materials in German, you just didn't know where to find it in the digital diary yet. Everything is in the internet: your grades, missing days and lessons, things and test you have missed and still have to do, homework, working material, you could even chat with the teachers there. 

... you are paying your parking space by sms with your phone bill.

... you're walking past another spa or beautysalon again and wonder, if it's the same as a minute before and you walked a circle or if there are just spas and beautysalons all over.

... you are missing beauty kind of shops like Rossmann and DM, because estonian stores are usually just so huge, that they have everything at once.

... in TV are shows from pretty much all over the world, from Estonian TV, over Russian magic shows, german and american criminal series, american shows, german Bundesliga and even childrens series, to japanese Takeshis Castle kind of competitions. If they are not just subtiteled, but synchronized it's mostly one speaker for all characters, no matter if male or female.

... literally everybody can sing - except me of course.

... -5°C don't feel like german -5°C: they are so much colder here.

... you discover, that especially Kinder Chocolate and Nutella taste different: Estonian sweets mostly contain less sugar, wich is good at some, worse and other points.

... you open your package filled with Yoghurette and Herzen Sterne Brezeln gingerbread, because it's just missing in estonian stores. Of course, the sweets are empty by the next day, because of course everybody wants to have a try.

... everybody is suffering a lot under the school stress, just not yourself, because you're an exchange student, don't understand that much and anyways wouldn't have to do anything.

... you hear the word "school shoes" and it's meaning for the first time. You have to change shoes in autumn and winter time to avoid mud in the school building. Good thing, I think. 

... you accidentaly stop listening somebody because she or he has as pretty much everybody here so phantastic bright eyes.

... you are totally excited by the fact, that young people are so much into folk and tradition. So many are going to folk festivals and stuff, it's amazing.

... your hostsister is showing you her really beautiful self sewn skirt, wich she did in school lessons. Yes, they have handicraft lessons. Yes, that's more than awesome.

... everybody is a pirate and I'm just too afraid of viruses.

... you rarely see couples in school and wonder, if estonian couples are just behaving like humans (not like most german same-school-student-couples), if they just have no time to meet up because mostly it depend on your teacher and timetable, when you have your lunchbreak, of if these couples just hide good.

... you just can't fit all the lovely estonian different things that you find just by walking through the store into one package.

... you see, how much more people are enjoying life and know how to, and let you be part of it.

... you are realizing, how perfect people are, how nice they are treating you, and how much you actually already grew into their society and daily life. 

 

 

... you buy a expensive coat for winter but already wear it in autumn.

... you just can't close your mouth because Tallinn from the seaside (and insider of course :D) is so amazing beautiful during sunset and night.

... you don't dare to take a look at your weight.

... you're having problems talking and writing good in your native language because you just don't use it like this anymore.

... you don't have to pay for buses and co., and anyways nobody really cares if you have a ticket.

 

 

... you start missing fresh warm bread and Brötchen for Breakfast (however Brötchen in English are called).

... you go to an Estonian theatre and it's so good, that you pretty much understand the piece without understanding the words.

... you start being so bad in using your native language, that you know some words in English and Estonian, but not German.

... you enjoy the white landscape for the first time in your new hometown around you on your way to school.

... you buy your first own riding equipment.

... you start writing a song because you feel like you somehow have to make something out of all the new things around you.

... you realise that it's already 1st Advent in a bit more than a week.

... you have that one awesome teacher, who forces you to talk Estonian to her, though she speaks English.

... Estonians keep selling flowers outside though it's snowing.

... your grade's girls are makind a dance on a song thats meanline is "Home is, where your heart is" and you start thinking, where yours belongs.

18November
2014

The doppelganger theory

As of course everybody knows How I Met Your Mother and that every of the main characters has a doppelganger there, I hope I don't have to tell you, how I came to following theory.
Because I really start thinking that everyone has a doppelganger somewhere. Maybe not as exact and similar as in HIMYM, but close enough to be reminded on another person.
How I come to that? Nearly everyday I see at least one person, that reminds me extremely on a person I know from Germany or wherever. Just by looking at them, not by personality. I don't know if I should be fascinated, worried or tested by a psychologist.
13November
2014

2015's New Year's Resolution

Yes, I'm already planning that :D I'm German, we're planning everything a long time before. This is at least what people say.

So on our way to the last riding lessons my neighbor was asking me something, and I answered, because it was quite an easy thing. Suddenly the car got quite. Everybody was wondering about what I just did. Same from time to time in school, when I get Estonian jokes and start laughing or answer shortly. So we started talking about my aim for talking in Estonian, if I have plans when to start or if I just wait till it works. As you know, I actually already wanted to talk in Estonian to my hostfam, but this failed. So one of the neighbor's daughters suggested, that I could start only in Estonian from New Year, as my New Year's Resolution, so to say. Actually Christmas was my 'latest', but as it is already mid-november (and I'm gonna mention it once again: TIME IS RUNNING), I don't actually thing this will work out... So, talking in Estonian is my official New Year's Resolution. Till then I will just go on doing my best.

And with time I find out more and more, how I'm learning and practicing the best. I somehow came to the conclusion, that this home project 'only Estonian with the hostfam' didn't work out, because the pressure to use the foreign language came too often from the outside - my little hostsiter for example was extremly picky about my english-estonian mix - and not from the inside, so from me. I mean yes, I am motivated and I also was, but she is maybe even to young to know, that it's just quite impossible to not even use English for translations, so when there's always somebody prohibiting me to use some English words, it doesn't work out for me. I'm getting annoyed quite fast, when I'm put under pressure and make mistakes, and this probably was also not really nice for my family. But I discovered for example, that I can understand my hostmum extremly good, probably better than anyone else, so I mostly let her talk to me in Estonian and I just keep on trying to answer her the same way. Also I'm more and more practicing with my friends: I told you, I talked with Signe in the holidays sometimes in Estonian, which worked out really good, and on our way back home from dancing lessons Merilyn and I did the same. It's mostly a weird mix from Estonian and English then, but somehow I feel like this is better than having the pressure of 'don't ever use English!'. I have no clue if it will help going on with small conversations like this, but since I'm learning a lot of vocabulary I think, that the English words will fade away on their own. I also changed my way to learn my vocabulary again. First I was always writing down the Estonian word and drawing something next to it, so that I know the meaning but don't read the translation. The thing is, that this of course doesn't work out for every word, so I had to write down the meanings, instead of drawing. So I learned the vocabularies with pictures faster, the others slower and then I of course get problems to find some kind of order. In addition, I'm learning a lot by writing, so I decided to start using 'vokker.net' again, which I also always used for my Latin and Spanish vocabulary. It's a quite cool and useful system. You always have to type the translation for the shown word. If it's right, it gets into the net 'box' if it's wrong, it goes back to the start. The more often you translate it right, the more days are in between asking the same word. Does this make sense? If not, check out the website. Anyways, so this is my learning plan, let's see if it works out...

08November
2014

Catching a horse - for beginners

So today I was riding, we went on some big field, where it was really awesome to ride because you can really feel, that the horses are enjoying the freedom there.
Back in the stable, we fed and cleaned the horses and boxes as always. There is this new horse in the stable, Verdi. Beautiful beige and black horse, and really young, only about 2 years old. So he doesn't really know the rules yet. Somebody was cleaning his box, the handcart in the door, so that he couldn't get out. That was at least the plan. Verdi ignored this and easily jumped over the handcart, suddenly standing in front of me with my handcart on my way through the stable. We tried to block his ways with ledders and everything we found, but it didn't work. Whyever, nobody closed the front door, maybe they thought if someone stood there it was enough, I didn't see it. Of course he went outside the stable, where the street is close. First it looked like his only way would be back into the stable, because there were people everywhere - but Verdi just jumped over a fence and escaped, destroyed the wire of an electric fence by just running through. (He will be a great jumping pony) We were so afraid he would fall over the wire. But that wasn't the worst. He went towards the street. First it looked good for us, we could stop him from running on the street, and he calmed down. So one girl tried to put the halter on him, but he just went crazy again. He ran on the street, towards the village centre. Can you imagine how scary it is, when you see a free horse walking up the little hill of a street and see a car coming up the hill? Luckily all car drivers were careful. Verdi went on and went at least a kilometre away into the village. In the end somebody caught him in a car park for old cars, because it was a fenced area and we blocked the passage. This was a huge excitement, especially because we tried to catch him on our own for the most time, because it took the owner ages till he finally came to help. So what we learned today: how to catch a horse - for beginners.
05November
2014

Going contemporary

Oh this headline hits a thousand of things I have to say, be warned of a long long text :D

So first thing: I finally joined Merilyn to her contemporary dancing lessons. This was like the best decision I could have made on topic of hobbies, I love that style, I always wanted to try it, now I will do it once a week.
I quit Sally's last week, because  on one side it's getting way too expensive, my bank account is empty, and on the other side, it just doesn't fit into my timetable anymore. My school timetable has changed, so I couldn't make it to Sally's on Wednesdays, and on Saturdays I don't want to go. And dancing is a thing I missed a lot, I just hope it will be okay with my joints, but I'm ignoring this for the first.
Connected to that: I feel so blessed. First exercise after the warmup today: think about something you know you have to do, to reach your actual aim or something, but you don't want to do that thing-then moving with that kind of feeling. And I had no clue. There's just nothing I have to do, that I don't want to do, and this makes me suddenly feel so free. Great.

Next thing: going contemporary, moving with the time. Well an exchange year means, you will and sometimes have to change a lot, but till now I didn't find a thing that will be important to change, at least nothing big. Now I did: swearing. Yes, I'm swearing a lot. I don't know, I think it's part of being a young german. We are using quite bad and mean words with friends, calling each other for fun with them and so stuff, and we're mostly using quite much slang. I think, because this kind of slang - wich is kind of a nice swearing mostly -  is not translatable, at least not for me, so I'm swearing a lot in English, just because it's somehow automatically. The thing is, that estonians are using swearwords and real specific slang words not that often, swearing is more serious I think. Soo, I have to start being nicer and learn to shut up at the right moments :D
02November
2014

Hingedepäev - All soul's day

When my hostmum and older hostsister Adel were starting to place candles in the house and I asked them why, it was the first time, that I heard of the All soul's day. We placed candles in the house, to lead the dead soul's ways. It's a beautiful thing actually, the athmosphere got so calm and prayerful, devotional. Nobody told, who they placed their candles for. I want to tell you.

Hingedepäev - All soul's day

So I got these three candles, but actually didn't know who to and also didn't really want to put them all for special named people, relatives or something.

One candle is for all people, that die too young. Die murdered, if by someone else or theirselfes. People that don't die in peace, whether because someone took their lives or they weren't happy and strong enough to hold on.

One candle is for the people, who quite nobody is burning a candle for. For people, that don't have relatives left, or their relatives don't even know they're dead. For homeless people that died on the streets, all hunger victims, victims of natural catastrophes, victims of war; for everybody who isn't idetified, not enough dignified, because they were part of a mass mortality for example.

One candle is for victims of sicknesses, that nobody really knows how to heal, because they just somehow appear in the modern health system, being resistant against all chemistry we are pumping into our bodies to get and stay healthy.

Who are you praying for tonight?

01November
2014

Viiner vs. Wiener

Yes, that's a strange topic, but I have to share that. Estonian "Viiner", wich should be kind of the same as the German "Wiener", are so weird.

I was making a salat, and as usually I wanted to put some kind of meat inside, I just love meat, so I decided to use the opened package of viiner, the estonian version of Wiener, I think pretty much everybody knows them. But I was so surprised of these sausages. To compare:

Wiener (yes, photo not taken by me) Wiener. Delicious sausages, usually as long as two of these mini versions, loved by kids in the smaller size because its just easier to handle and these sausage chains are just funny. You can eat the Wiener as they are, you can cook them, fry them, whatever. You nearly don't recognize the kind of skin around them. Inside they are just slightly brighter than outside. They taste like meat, of course.

Viiner. Photo not by me. Viiner. They look on the first view quite the same as the Wiener I'm used to, slightly darker, more orange. But hold on, now the creepy thing is: You have to peel them. I don't know if you have to, but I did. The skin seems to be a orange plastic-feeling kinda thing, wich is just twistet in between the sausages. It's slightly transparent, so the orange doesn't look that orange if the skin thingy is on the sausage, because, don't fall off your chair, the sausage is nearly grey. It looks like a dead Wiener. It's kind of grey, maybe mixed with a very very bright brown meat kinda tone, but it definetly doesn't look like meat. On the package was written: 80% meat. I don't want to know what the 20% left are. I was frying the sausages, in hope they would change their colour to some more meat-like looking, but they didn't. They went extremly dark, where they got hot, and stayed dead on the rest. And they don't actually taste like anything. So: I want to have Wiener for Christmas, please! :D

 

1st: http://us.123rf.com/450wm/diamant24/diamant241302/diamant24130200008/17680495-viele-mini-wiener-kette-nahaufnahme-auf-weissem-hintergrund.jpg

2nd: http://www.lihavyrst.ee/pictures/c1f975eee763abf089349e91c38edcc1.jpg

31Oktober
2014

Helloween

I actually didn't want to be home on Helloween, I have never been, because its's so much more popular to go out on Helloween in Germany, at least with my friends. I admit, it's a bit childish thing, but quite every year we went out to ask for sweets or at least put make up on and had fun. In Estonia it's not that common, not even for the younger ones, so I only saw 4 people walking around the houses the whole evening. Okay I haven't been out so much, too. I was ill the whole last week, had a cold again. But this time it was pretty bad, I couldn't really talk for some days even. So I couldn't go anywhere. But: I'm probably the luckiest bastard on earth :D Merilyn came spontaneous over with marshmallows, cacao and Helloween movies. Actually we planned to watch the two movies and she had me nearly convinced to go to Tallinn in the evening, but do you know what we did? Talked. The whole evening. You could even say the whole night. From 7pm till around 3am. We watched around 30min of Nightmare before Christmas, wich took us around 1 1/2h, because we always interrupted it to tell something that just came to our mind. I haven't talked to somebody for so long in a row for a long time, really, it was so awesome. So a multilingual Thanks Danke Aitäh Merci Gratias ago Gracias and more doesn't come to my mind - It was a really happy Helloween :D

25Oktober
2014

Koolivaheaeg Oktoobris

So my first Estonian holidays are quite over, I just came home from my friend Signe's place - I enjoyed the time, but I'm also happy to be home again, though my hostfamily is still sleeping - they arrived early in the morning and were travelling all night.

I will write about the "main attractions" of the holidays, so mostly Tartu, but in between probably some other things we did will be mentioned.

So on Thursday we made it by bus to Tartu. We started from Viimsi around 7:15, took the bus to Tartu at 8 and arrived around 10:30. The bus was so awesome. Extremely comfortable, everybody had an own little TV thingy with different pretty famous movies and of course there was free WiFi in the bus. 

It was cold as hell, so we went on the whole day to at least 3 different cafés and some shops, just to get warm again. The best thing: The food and drink was always great.

First stops were some antik shops, our favourites were old bookshops. There are so many of them in Tartu! What we saw was unbelievable. I bought these old Bible Psalms from 1886, Signe a book from 1912. Later in another shop we saw a 250 years old Bible - we decided to buy it next time when we visit Tartu, because it's only 20€ and still even good enough to read it. Also we promised the bookshop owner to come back, because he was so faszinated, that two young girls were interested in old Estonian literature and reading, so that he didn't want us to pay a few books we chose. My choise was Remarque's Arc de Triomphe in Estonian - can't wait to read and understand it. So we promised him to come back to his shop and pay then - he won't remember probably, but that doesn't matter, the shop was awesome.

Signe's, my book and these robs you burn and then they smell good - the cannabis one just smells like cannabis, without effect, don't worry! :D The oldest books we've ever held in our hands

We actually didn't really plan our trip, so we just went somewhere. Okay actually our trip was planned perfectly, we even had a timetable: But we had to change our plans shortly, so we were walking around enjoying the beauty of Tartu. Really, it's such a nice city. Sculptures and memorials and old builings everywhere. 

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In the afternoon/evening we went to AHHAA teaduskeskus, kind of a interactive museum. It was so fun :D We asked some nice guys from the stuff for help, because after the AHHAA we still had pretty much time, but not enough for a walk around the city by night or something. They recommended Püssirohukelder (gun powder basement) and to eat the soljanka in bread there. Yes, soljanka in bread. It was so so good and such a nice location. Google it for some photos, I really recommend it.

Back in Tallinn we followed our tradition and ate a McFlurry - as everyday in this week, no matter how cold it was outside. 

On another day we were in Tallinn's Kadrioru park and around the manor for a little photoshoot.

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We did so many nice things, it would be way too much to write all. It was an awesome week in that nice family, were everybody was always trying to make me be comfy and helping me to learn. One evening Signe and me were talking for 20 minutes or something just in Estonian - gave me the feeling I should try that more often again. Thanks for these first Estonian holidays :3

18Oktober
2014

II. Sünnipäev

Another week and another birthday is over!  :O :D I know I write that actually in every post, but the time is running so fast. And more and more I feel bad about my language skills, because speaking is still so hard. Understanding works quite well, good enough, but talking is so so difficult...
But anyways, I should write about the week because it was nice and there's actually a lot to tell.
Soo let's start with the YFU Autumn meeting on last Saturday. Yeah it was really YFU-like, much talking, food and energizers - in the middle of oldtown of course :D
On Friday was the last school day before the holidays, wich last only for one week - but better then nothing. I will spend the holidays with my friend Signe, so a huge post will follow :D Also on Friday was the school birthday - yes, they celebrate that. So before the 1st lesson the whole school came together to sing for example the school anthem, later there was a concert for every grade - all that fancy stuff.
On Thursday was my second birthday, wich we of course kind of celebrated. I actually planned to cook dinner, but my hostdad planned the same, so we ended up cooking together, wich was also fine.


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Now it's Saturday morning, I just came home from a really nice evening, that sadly ended a bit spontaneous. I was in some kind of a club or bar or whatever in oldtown with some friends from my grade, where this night 4 bands had their gigs, we saw just the 2 first. The very first band, I actually really liked them, they made kinda punk alternative rock, was friends with a guy from my grade, that's how I came to that. Their name is translated 'brain washing machine' - "Ajupesumasin" love that :D
I felt again that I'm just not used to having so much free space yet. I planned to come home with the last bus at 11:30, but we forgot the time totally, so I saw around 12:30 that my hostdad called me twice. I was so so worried, I thought he would never let me go out again, I really had tears in my eyes because I felt like I disappointed him so much - and he just laughed at me. The only thing he asked me to do was to text him next time if I come later, but that was all. Really. Amazing. :D
So the next important thing to write about will be the holidays with Signe, we will do cool stuff like going to fancy seminars, her favourite places in town, go to Tartu... full exchange student holiday fun program, including language lessons with her 3 year old sister - adorable.
09Oktober
2014

On külm

I didn't update for a long long time, so I will just start writing a bit about my time and what happened.
Well it's getting cold here. Since a few weeks we already feel autumn and winter coming, but now it's getting really uncomfortable outside. It's under ten degrees, rainy, stormy, sky looks like a grey soup all day. BUT as it's getting colder, we are using the fireplace much more- it's so awesome. I'm often working and learning in front of it because it's just so comfy.
Ooh, working, a good word.
I told you we had that project at home to talk only Estonian till 8pm. Well it kind of failed. The first days were good, but somehow we like talking just too much. So it started with a few times of "okay, that in English because it would be too hard in Estonian", now we're at "okay that's easy, I'll say it in Estonian". I feel kind of sorry for that, because I still feel I don't work hard enough, but on the other hand I don't have really much power at the moment. Somehow everything is a bit on stop now- I don't know what to talk about, I can't see any learning progress anymore, I had too much contact to germany in the last time because of some important reasons, I have so many things to do but just don't start. I don't know.
But then on the other hand there are still these "yeey-moments", you know, like when people sit down next to you and are like "hey, you said you understood that topic, you could help me" or when you're telling the answer and reason to your classmate in Estonian, just because you heard the way to say it so often.
Oh something more special.
In Sally's I experienced, that people are bringing sweets for their birthday- and even a day before. I think in germany nobody would do this, at least not a day before or after the birthday.
At the weekend I was at a thai girl's birthday party and saw many exchange students again- that was great.
On Saturday is the YFU autumn meeting- with lots of people, lots of languages, lots of food and lots of energizers! Missed that :3 :D
I'll write more then because I feel like it would be pointless to write more now. So have a nice time :)
02Oktober
2014

Hope, Home and Happiness

I should write a book with that title, sounds cool somehow, doesn't it? :D
This is probably kind of a late night philosophy, just to warn you. Might be a long post, you know me.

So well let's start with the first H, hope.
My hostfamily and I are starting a project from today. Aim is to talk only in Estonian till 8pm or something. The time limit so that we have some time to talk about really important things that are too hard to discuss in Estonian or just for some time to relax or so. I hope and think this will help me improving the language, because in the last days I felt more and more like that I should work harder again because life got too easy for me. I don't feel good when everyone is talking in English for me, I don't want to be like the special one you have to talk in English to anymore.

Second H, home.
Day after day I somehow feel splitted. On one hand this all here becomes so normal for me. My way to school, the language around me, the people, the classes, everything. But then on the other hand, there are these unbelievable moments, when you just could cry because everything is so perfect. When you're sitting in the bus on your way home and you see Tallinn shining in the darkness. When you think about how many people would love to take a photo once in their life of that awesome scenery, that you could see every day. That moment, when you are sitting with your hostfam in front of the fireplace, just being comfortable and talking about everything. That moment, when your hostdad is asking you for fun wich of the boys on stage at a school concert you like the best and you don't mind to answer right away.
And I have to say, I feel a bit sorry for not being homesick. Actually I sometimes really feel awful because I don't miss Germany. I mean, yes I'm pointing at it when I see the German flag, I'm happy when I hear German tourists talking, it's heartwarming when some Estonian is trying to talk in German to me, I sometimes miss to talk to my dog in whole sentences and he kind of understands what he has to do, I sometimes miss the feeling of dancing with my smallgroup- But compared to all the good things that I have here, it's nothing. I feel sorry for not sending birthday wishes to most people back in Germany, I feel sorry for that I can't remember the last time I visited my German Facebook profile- but this is all so so far away. I feel so homely here, everything else is like more and more fading away, even after one and a half month there's no sign of homesickness.

Last and most important H, happiness. Ma olen üliõnnelik :D Seriously, I feel so great. Every day I get more happy about my decision to do an exchange year. Everybody is supporting you. Everybody is treating you like you're not even a bit different. Everybody seems to be proud of you. "it's like you're a real part of our grade" "Jenny is our third daughter" "you're doing great already after only a month!" "I will talk in Estonian to you" "we can do this together" "Really?! Not even I understood!"
And it's so awesome that people kind of love you for learning their language. They are saying "Thanks for learning so fast", really, I'm not kidding! You can see the sparkle in their eyes when they see you understood or spoke a bit and it makes so proud. I'm so happy to be here, to live here, to learn here. And it's so so good to know that people like to have me here. Everything is fitting so perfect. Actually I'm a really lucky bastard. I have the family that is just perfect, helping and pushing me forward at the same time. I'm living close to probably one of the most beautiful capitals in the world. I'm in an awesome grade. People are treating me all nice. I'm just happy.
01Oktober
2014

Liikumspäev - Moving Day

Yesterday was the Liikumispäev, Moving Day in our school. So even when I was walking to school around 8:35 the first younger students were walking enthusiastic on their way from the school to Pirita and back. Past our house. The dog was outside. 30 little fingers pointing at Musi. She went crazy, believe me :D And this procedure the whole day. 

Actually the moving day was not really like a sports day as I thought it would be. Is was actually just a little walk to Pirita beach and back, with some question points at the way to check that the groups have been there and didn't just take the bus. What most people did of course anyways. Also Signe and I had the great idea to go to a shop to get some food for the way. The others can't be that fast that we will lose them, we thought. We were so stupid. So we were half runnig after our group, of course taking the wrong way a few times. But happily we found them in the end. Probably the people at the checkpoints were wondering a few times: th 17 people group sometimes only had 8 people left :D So it was a fun day without any point of sport, but good for us.

In the evenig my day really turned into a moving day because I was at the horseranch or however to call it for about 3h. About one and a half riding, the rest of the time helping walking horses and so things.

Actually I'm a bit worried about riding right now, or more about writing about it here, because I totally forgot, that riding is actually one of these "dangerous sports" we are not allowed to do without a special permission of both, natural and hostparents. So now that permission thing is somewhere on it's way between Germany and Estonia, I hope it will arrive soon. 

29Sept
2014

Suur Aitäh!

WHAT?!



Thanks for checking my blog more than 2000 (!!!) times! You must be crazy to read my texts! :D

25Sept
2014

Do you want to go to a concert now? - Spontaneity

As every Wednesday I came out the bus on my way home from Sally's around 8. I was listening to music, calming down from the long day - as usually. When I got out of the bus, a classmate was just about to get in. He meant me to take off my earphones and suddenly asked : "Hey, do you want to go to a concert now?" Well I didn't really believe what I heard so I got back into the bus with him. He told me he was on his way to a friend's band's concert in Tallinn. It should start at nine, maybe be over at eleven... He didn't know if he could come back home by bus that late and has no money for a taxi so probably he would do whatever, he told me. So Harold, this blogpost that you will never read is for you- to show this awesome spontaneity to the world :D it was actually pretty sad that I couldn't join because probably it would have been fun. But well, I'm a small new underaged exchange student... Next time maybe. :D
22Sept
2014

Midnight Philosophy - Happy Birthday

I'm writing pretty much in the last days, don't know why. There's just much to tell right now.

Today I found that extremly cute and amusing letter under my pillow. It was a short and easy poem about what I'm doing all day (... and sometimes I play the guitar also...).

The last part of the letter is just stuck in my head, it's translated something like

"Hold on, sweetheart, Happy 1st month Birthday..."

First thinking, that singing "Happy Birthday" on the month's anniversary is just like fitting half to the topic and actually just for fun, I now of course have my deep thinking moments again late at night when I actually should sleep, and realise, that Happy Birthday is the only song that really fits and describes what a anniversary in an exchange year is.

"An exchange isn't a year in a life, it's a life in a year." Including your Birthdays, growing up, learning to speak, somehow even to walk on your own. So now I try to walk on my own, though it's hard, and I'm so thankful for the people helping me, especially my hostfamily.

Life's about the small gifts you get on every day, you just have to see them. It starts with that one sentence that always makes me so proud:

"As you are our 3rd daughter..." You can't imagine the feeling that sentence is making.

Also these little "Hey, do you have that in Germany?" "Did you ever try this?" "I can help you with your Estonian-learning." And best of all Monikas "Rääki Eesti keeles!" 

Up to "Hey by the way did you find the poem under your pillow...?"

Awesome.

21Sept
2014

Instagram

In cause of that I was already asked for a Instagram name a few times on topic of my exchange I now finally decided to post it here. I don't know if that's a good idea because of privacy and co, so maybe I will delete following people that I don't know again later. I'm sorry for that then. But from now you can find my Instagram name in the widged "Author" on the right. I don't use it so long yet, so there are not many photos. It's also private, so I have to allow you to follow me and see my pics. If I think you're scary, I won't add you. Sorry :D But feel free to give it a try :D BUT: This will be always on topic of my exchange, not my privat life. 

21Sept
2014

Rebaste Nädal - Fox Week

The Fox Week, Rebaste Nädal... Well what should I say, this is just an awesome idea! It's like the welcoming for the 10th graders, that are just starting the high school- gümnaasium.

So every 10th grader gets a "god", who is telling his "fox" what to do.This is starting with wearing funny up to embarrassing clothes, over to bringing breakfast to more or less stupid but amusing exercises at school. So we had to touch a wall wherever we were walking and if we wanted to cross the corridor we had to make a human chain to get to the other side. We had to tell our grade's headmasters compliments whenever we saw them, had to sing the schoolanthem a few times and were running hand in hand through the school building. Yeah, hand in hand. 73 funny-clothed 10th graders. Through the biggest school in Estonia. Jumping over benches included. During the lunch break of the smaller students.

 Merka & me

 Also very loved: Telling their Foxes to change Facebook name, profile picture and cover photo. So for the next 60 days, before that Facebook doesn't allow me to change my name again, I'm "The Small German Fox". Kinda cute.

My cover photo during the week

The final day was friday, when we were meeting in the morning for some, I don't know which adjective is the best, games. The best were the costumes. Boys in ferry-dresses and string-tangas over leggins, swimsuits, masks and hats- the full program.

 Our grade on friday

We started with a warmup with dancing on Timber, what was actually really fun because I had to dance with these cheerleading pompons.

Also we had to lay down close next to each other and transport a coin from one side to the other without using hands. Means: You had to lay down on the one with the coin, hold close and turn around. I hope you can imagine the fun and the photos of that :D Next thing was standing in a circle, mostly boy next to girl, and transporting a card around with the mouth. So you had to make a vacuum by breathing in to hold the card and give it then to the next one. Now imagine the pictures of boy and girl giving the card to the next. Some photos looked like passionate kisses :D The onion game followed. Pairs of mostly boy and girl were made. One had to carry the other to the other side of the sports field. There you had to lay down, cut a onion, a fresh one that is burning in your eyes of course, some people had to eat some pieces, and then run back carrying your partner. Then: Standing in a line, back at the high fence around the field. And then they came. With waterbombs. I don't have to finish the description I think. Well after that we cleaned the area while we had to dance on songs we would call "Schlager" in Germany. But not the good ones, the bad ones of course :D So then we left the area and had to crawl back to the school. Crawl. Over wet grass. Up a hill. No more words for that :D

Of course there was a formal part also in the evenig. So they showed us the photos of the week, we gave presents to our gods and they gave us some and also somekind of a diploma that displaced us from our fox-being and makes us real students at the gümnaasium now. At night there was of course somekind of a inofficial party everyone of course knew about but anyways calls it inofficial. Means: No teachers. Only 12th and 10th graders. I won't write more :D

20Sept
2014

Second 1st Anniversary and my last week

So well, today is the second 1st month anniversary: The first month in my hostfamily is over. It is unbelievable, the time is running so fast. So in the evening we were eating together- "we" was whyever the whole closer family, because all grandmothers and attendance were here for a visit. So after dinner they sang "Palju õnne"-"Happy Birthday" for me, because nobody knew a better song for that cause and we ate the cake I just bought. Actually it would have been cooler to bake it, but I'm ill this time so I thought it wouldn't be so smart to bake for them. But it was an awesome evening, though I felt awful and so weak. So from now: Cake and chrysanthemes (I have no clue if this is the correct plural, looks funny :D) every month. And as my hostmum added: Every week, every 10 days, every 100 days, best every 24h..


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 Well what should I write about the week... Okay first: That thing with riding. The first lessons was just so chaotic :D The riding teacher speeks so little english that he actually couldn't explain anything, I haven't been riding for months and should ride a parcours and so on :D I was just so confused :D But I will try it some more times when I'm not ill anymore, I think it would be great to ride this year.

 

Also we finally apllied for my ID card, so in 2 weeks maybe I'll be a legal Estonian for a year :D

 

I had of course guitar lessons again and I'm so so happy that we found that teacher. 

 

I think that was all for now, the rest will be in the post about the Fox Week :D

16Sept
2014

Happy Anniversary

So today is my first month anniversary :D

Actually I don't have to say that much, but:
Tomorrow the Fox Week, Rebaste Nädal, starts.

So let the fun and torture begin :D

12Sept
2014

My gym partner is a monkey - The 2nd school week

Well just a little update so that you know what was going on. Probably I will do it like this always in the next time, like to update on fridays or the weekend, because I just don't have time and strength to write so much in school time.

Well that means school is just too exhausting to do anything really productive after it, at least in the first weeks. When I'm home from school I usually eat plenty of sweets to get some energy or just have a nap :D I really didn't think that language shock would be that hard, but it is. It's so difficult when you are the whole day always just understanding a few words and trying to put them together so they make a sense. I'm actually pretty proud that I understand so much yet, but most times it's not enough to figure out the meanings of the words I don't understand. So I'm always writing down the words I don't know but heard often. But believe me, even that is getting hard after about 6 lessons. Then I feel like I hear the word, I even know how it may be spelled, but then I somehow don't think fast enough to write it down. Tricky. Also I have no clue how I should start speeking. It's awesome that everybody in school is helping me and speeking in English, but I don't know if I should better start using Estonian. But maybe I shouldn't worry and just wait :D

Well my week was actually pretty important. I decided, to go to the free gym in our school once a week with a girl from my grade. We want to go on Tuesday mornings before school, what is a really awesome way to start the day, because we have two free lessons there. Also I was Sally's again and suddenly I'm not that sure anymore if I like it that much. It's always that fight with the money. It's just so much and I'm still thinking if I should better spend it on a new guitar or a looper for my electrical one or for some sport... Not sure yet, I will go on and decide after maybe one or two month more. 

Apropos sport. I will go to have a look on riding on Sunday with the neighbors. It would be so great if I could take riding lessons. Like really, so awesome :D

So added to that I had my first guitar lesson this week. Sadly it was on Thursday, which is my longest school day in the week. I came home from school about 15:45 and about 20min later the guitar guy arrived. I had 1 1/2h lessons, longer than actually planned, because we were of course talking a lot about us and our guitars. I was nearly falling asleep and I felt so sorry for that, because he is really awesome. He plays extremly good and I think his lessons will really help me, because he is understanding and pushes you always a bit at the same time. So now I finally have a guitar teacher, yey :D

Today after school I went to the Ukraine-Belgium Tennis match in Tallinn. Well I have to say, Tennis is really somekind of extremly interesting. Maybe I will become a fan :D

Tomorrow will be some kind of an info day in school, like about what things they are offering for hobbies and stuff, might be important. 

On sunday a first look on riding and then the next weekend is over and school starts again :D

OOH school: I will start to go into 4th grade Estonian lessons next week :3 Will be fun :D Maybe Maja, the second exchange student at Viimsi Kool, will even join me :3

08Sept
2014

Midnight philosophy - One day, baby, we'll be old

Well I just want to share the Poetry Slam of the german Julia Engelmann with you. It's awesome. I just found it on the internet, actually searching for a good line for my first Instagram upload- I'm getting modern :D The first and original version is in German, but I try to translate it. But it won't rhyme then anymore, sorry. Just think about the meaning, this is why you should do an exchange year. Experience the world- NOW. Not later. Not as an adult. Not when you're maybe rich. Do it now and stop wasting time.

"Eines Tages, Baby, werden wir alt sein, oh Baby werden wir alt sein und an all die Geschichten denken, die wir hätten erzählen können.

Ich, ich bin der Meister der Streiche wenn’s um Selbstbetrug geht,

bin ein Kleinkind vom Feinsten, wenn ich vor Aufgaben steh.

Bin ein entschleunigtes Teilchen, kann auf keinstem was reißen,

lass mich begeistern für Leichtsinn, wenn ein Andrer ihn lebt.

Und ich denke zu viel nach, ich warte zu viel ab,

ich nehm mir zu viel vor und ich mach davon zu wenig,

ich halt mich zu oft zurück, ich zweifel alles an,

ich wäre gerne klug,

allein das ist ziemlich dämlich.

Ich würd gern so vieles sagen, aber bleibe meistens still,

weil, wenn ich das alles sagen würde, wär das viel zu viel.

Ich würde gern so vieles tun, meine Liste ist so lang,

aber ich werd eh nie alles schaffen,

also fang ich gar nicht an.

Stattdessen häng ich planlos vorm Smartphone, wart bloß auf den nächsten Freitag,

„ach das mach ich später“ ist die Baseline meines Alltags.

Ich bin so furchtbar faul, wie ein Kieselsteig am Meeresgrund,

ich bin so furchtbar faul,

mein Patronus ist ein Schweinehund.

Mein Leben ist ein Wartezimmer, niemand ruft mich auf,

mein Dopamin, das spar ich immer, falls ich‘s nochmal brauch.

Und eines Tages, Baby, werd ich alt sein, oh Baby, werd ich alt sein und an all die Geschichten denken, die ich hätte erzählen können.

Und du, du murmelst jedes Jahr neu an Silvester die wiedergleichen Vorsätze treu in dein Sektglas

und Ende Dezember stellst du fest, dass du Recht hast, wenn du sagst, dass du sie dieses Jahr schon wieder vercheckt hast,

dabei sollte für dich 2013 das erste Jahr vom Rest deines Lebens werden.

Du wolltest abnehmen, früher aufstehen,

öfter rausgehen,

mal deine Träume angehn,

mal die Tagesschau sehn, für mehr Smalltalk, Allgemeinwissen,

aber so wie jedes Jahr, obwohl du nicht damit gerechnet hast,

kam dir wieder mal dieser Alltag dazwischen.

Unser Leben ist ein Wartezimmer, niemand ruft uns auf,

unser Dopamin das sparen wir immer, falls wir‘s noch mal brauchen.

Und wir sind jung und haben viel Zeit, warum sollen wir was riskieren,

wir wollen doch keine Fehler machen,

wollen doch nichts verlieren.

und es bleibt so viel zu tun, unsere Listen bleiben lang,

Und so geht Tag für Tag ganz still ins unbekannte Land

und eines Tages, Baby, werden wir alt sein, oh Baby, werden wir alt sein und an all die Geschichten denken, die wir hätten erzählen können.

Und die Geschichten, die wir dann stattdessen erzählen, werden traurige Konjunktive sein, wie

„einmal bin ich fast einen Marathon gelaufen, und hätte fast die Buddenbrooks gelesen

und einmal wär ich beinahe bis die Wolken wieder Lila waren noch wach gewesen,

und fast, fast hätten wir uns mal demaskiert und gesehn wir sind die Gleichen,

und dann hätten wir uns fast gesagt wie viel wir uns bedeuten“, werden wir sagen.

Und dass wir nur bloß faul und feige waren, werden wir verschweigen, und uns heimlich wünschen noch ein bisschen hier zu bleiben.

Wenn wir dann alt sind und unsere Tage knapp – und das wird sowieso passieren – dann erst werden wir kapieren, wir hatten nie was zu verlieren,

denn das Leben, das wir führen wollen, das können wir selber wählen, also lass uns doch Geschichten schreiben, die wir später gern erzählen.

Lass uns nachts lange wach bleiben, aufs höchste Hausdach der Stadt steigen,

lachend und vom Takt frei die allertollsten Lieder singen,

lass uns Feste wie Konfetti schmeißen, sehn wie sie zu Boden reisen und die gefallenen Feste feiern bis die Wolken wieder Lila sind.

Und lass mal an uns selber glauben, is mir egal ob das verrückt ist,

und wer genau guckt sieht, dass Mut auch bloß ein Anagramm von Glück ist.

Und wer immer wir auch waren, lass mal werden, wer wir sein wollen,

wir haben schon viel zu lang gewartet, lass mal Dopamin vergeuden.

Der Sinn des Lebens ist leben, das hat schon Casper gesagt,

Let’s make the most of the night, das hast schon Ke$a gesagt.

Lass uns möglichst viele Fehler machen und möglichst viel aus ihnen lernen,

lass uns jetzt schon Gutes säen, damit wir später Gutes ernten.

Lass uns alles tun, weil wir können und nicht müssen,

weil jetzt sind wir jung und lebendig und das soll ruhig jeder wissen.

Und unsere Zeit die geht vorbei, das wird sowieso passieren,

und bis dahin sind wir frei und es gibt nichts zu verlieren.

Lass uns mal demaskieren, und dann sehen, wir sind die Gleichen, und dann können wir uns ruhig sagen, dass wir uns viel bedeuten,

denn das Leben, das wir führen wollen, das können wir selber wählen.

Also los, schreiben wir Geschichten, die wir später gern erzählen.

Und eines Tages, Baby, werden wir alt sein, oh Baby, werden wir alt sein und an all die Geschichten denken, die für immer unsere sind."

 

"One day, Baby, we'll be old, Oh Baby, we'll be old and think of all the stories that we could have told.

I'm the master if tricks when it's about cheating myself,

I'm like a toddler when it's about duties,

I'm like a decelerated particle, can win nowhere,

I'm inspiried by carelessness, when someone else is living it.

And I'm thinking too much, waiting too long,

I'm conducting too much and do too little,

I'm detaining too often, doubt in everything,

I'd rather be smart,

But even that is pretty dimwitted.

I'd like to say so much, but I'm mostly quiet,

Because if I said that all, it would be way too much.

I'd like to do so much, my register of plans is so long,

But I couldn't manage it anyways,

So I'm not even starting.

Instead, I'm aimless in front of my smartphone, waiting for the next Friday,

"Oh, I'll do this later" is the baseline of my day.

I'm so terrible lazy, like a pebble stone on the sea bottom,

I'm so terrible lazy, my patronus is a rafink, an bad inner temptation.

My life is a waitingroom, no one is calling for me,

I'm always saving my dopamine, for maybe I'd need it later.

And one day, Baby, I'll be olay, Oh Baby, I'll be old and think of all the sories that I could have told-

And you, you're mumbling the always same intnensions loyal in your champagne glass

And at the end of december you're regognizing that you're right if you're saying you didn't get it this year again,

Although 2013 should have been the first year of the rest of your life.

You wanted to loose weight, get up earlier,

Go out,

Start to live your dreams,

Watch The Daily News, fo more Smalltalk, education,

But just as every year before, although you didn't see it coming,

The daily routine crossed your plans.

Our life is a waiting room, nobody is calling for us,

We're saving our dopamine for maybe we'd need it later.

And we are young and have much time, why should we risk,

We don't want to make mistakes,

Don't want to lose.

And there's so much left to do, our registers of plans stay long,

And so day after day goes by, silently into foreing lands.

And one day, Baby, we'll be old, Oh Baby, we'll be old, and think of all the stories that we could have told.

And the stories we will be telling instead will be sad subjunctives, like

"Once I nearly ran a marathon, nearly had read the Buddenbrooks,

Once I've nearly been awake untill the clouds turned purple again,

And almost, almost we would have unmask and would have seen, we are the same,

And then we almost had told us, how much we mean to each other", we will say.

And that we've been just too lazy and too cowardish, we wil conceal, and secretly wish to stay a bit longer.

When we're old one day and our time narrow - and this will happen anyway - then we will know, we never could have lost.,

because the life we want to live we can choose on our own, so let's write the stories, we would like to tell later.

Let's be up till late at night, let's go on the highest roof of the city,

Let's sing laughing the best songs out of any rhythm,

Let's throw parties like confetti, see how they travel down to the ground and celebrate the fallen parties till the clouds are purple again.

And let's believe in ourselfs, I don't care if this is crazy,

And who watches will know, that anger is only an anagram of luck.

And who ever we've been, let's become who we want to be,

we've already been waiting for too long, let's waist dopamine.

The sense of life is living, Casper said it before,

Let's make the most of the night, Ke$ha said it before.

Let's make as many mistakes as possible and learn as much as possible from them,

Let's seed the good things now, to crop them later.

Let's do everything because we can, not because we have to,

Because now we are young and full of life and everybody should know.

And our time will pass by, that will happen anyways,

And until then, we're free and there's nothing to loose.

Let's demask and then see we are the same, and then we can easily tell us how much we mean to each other.,

Because the life that we live we can choose on our own.

So let's go, let's write stories, that we would like to tell later.

And one day, Baby, we'll be old, Oh Baby, we'll be old, and think of all the stories that are for ever ours."

 

Text by Julia Engelmann, Translation by me!

07Sept
2014

14 Estonian Cases

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So Ladies and Gentlemen, this is my epic drawing of the 14 Estonian cases. At least this is what it should be. My hostsisters helped me with the examples so they should be mostly right. The sentences are really easy so I think everyone could understand them. It's easier for me to learn the cases I think when I can see them somehow,  so I will put this paper on my wall so that I can see it all day. I hope it helps you too :))

Maybe a little explanation:

Ma ostan LILLE. I buy A FLOWER. The probably most important case, because you add the endings on it. So you have to learn it for every word. Example: lill - lille.

Ma istun KATUSEL. I sit ON THE ROOF. Simple. When you are on or next to something, you add a -L.

Ma olen SOBRAGA. I am WITH A FRIEND. When you are with something, add a -GA.

Ma olen SOBRATA. I am WITHOUT A FRIEND. The opposite: When you are without something, add a -TA.

Seitsmest ÜHEKSANI. From seven TILL NINE. Marks the finish of something, like until where or when. Add a -NI.

Ma tulen NOIANA. I come AS A WITCH. As what or you, like a costume or something. Add a -NA.

Ma lähen LINNA(SSE). I go INTO THE CITY. When you go inside something, add -SSE. You can also leave it and double the last consonant, this is probably more common. That's wy the ending is in brackets. 

Ma olen LINNAS. I am IN THE CITY. When you are inside something, add -S.

Ma tulen LINNAST. I come OUT OF THE CITY. When you are moving out of something, add -ST.

Minu RATAS. Minu VOTI. My BIKE. My KEY. You normally leave while using the genitive, "owners-case", the words as they are. But be careful, this case is not just for when you talk about the owner of something. It's also sometimes used when you would in German for example use the accusative (what do I bake?- The cake.)

Ma istun TOOLILE. I'm GOING TO sit on THE CHAIR. A bit confusing, but the only good example my hostsisters knew. When you are moving to something, not into it, add a -LE.

Ma voitan tassi LAUALT. I take the cup FROM THE TABLE. Moving away from something, but not out of it: add a -LT.

Ma muutan su LINNUKS. I CHANGE you TO A BIRD. Yeah a bit funny I know, but you use this when something is changing. Also when you say for what you do something. -KS.

 

So this should be the basic stuff for the first :D Have fun! :D I started to text people in Estonian, I failed so hard, but it's fun to learn like this, so always just TRY! :D

 

05Sept
2014

Kool Eestis

So my first "school week" is over, actually only the first 2 days of school because we were in Käsmu for the rest of the time. Well school in Estonia is really great for me, I'm having a lot of fun the whole day with awesome people and I'm learning so much. I started to write the words, that the teacher is using the most, that I don't understand, in a notice book to translate them later. I think it's a good way to learn the all day's language a bit better. Also I'm always trying to the classes as best as possible, Maths and English are working very well I think. The really cool thing is, that I have no real fixed timetable. I can just walk around and visit any classes I want to. Later then I will decide which ones are good for me and which ones I will skip, so for example languages like Russian or Spanish would make no sense for me, but in exchange maybe some Estonian lessons in the 3rd grade. 

About my class/ grade. I don't even know if you can call it class, probably not. I will try to explain. You can normally choose, if you're not like me, between a social type, a economic type and a nature science type. So in this social type you will have for example the choise between some more languages, you have more arts or music or so and can visit psychology classes for example. This you can choose again, so it's like having courses in a course-type. Some classes the whole course-type attends together, sometimes even mixed with other types and so on. So you somehow could maybe say that the types are like classes, but they are also mixed together in courses. A bit confusing :D

But so this is the reason why we call our whole grade one class, just because everbody is somehow having some lessons with everybody.

05Sept
2014

The first time at Sally's and useless info

On wednesday, the 3rd of september, I went to Sally's art studio in town for the first time. It was such an exhausting day, I just came from the Käsmu camp, was home for an hour or something and then went to town.

Well as you may know, on Wednesday Barack Obama was in Tallinn to have a speech about that Estonia will never be alone again and so on, because they are afraid of Russia right now and that Putin might want to take Estonia after the Ukraine. 

So I actually thought, that I could never go to Sally's because it's pretty much in the centre and really close to the old town. But there was nothing, not even more police or something. Completely chilled. So I went with the bus to Hobujaama and walked the rest of the way, like 10 min. It was kind of confusing to find the entrance, because Sally's has 2 entrances from 2 streets, of course I went to the wrong one first. But at least I saw a bit of the old town and even recognized some of the places I went at my fabulous safari to Visu Keskus (for that, read the older post with all the photos- How to get to Viru Keskus). First I thought I would never go there again, because all the other students are so much younger than me, at least 2 years, probably even more. But in the end I felt really good because the teachers were really caring. Though one couldn't even speek a whole sentence in English, she always tried to explain and correct my work and what I might do better or on an other way. I was like in my own bubble when I did that creative stuff, so it was a really cool evening.

Also our hunt for a guitar teacher is going on, next Thursday I will meet that electric guitar teacher, who is not a full time teacher. YFU will pay, everything is going right. Then I will only have to find some sport, because PE lessons really won't be enough.

05Sept
2014

Esimene koolipäev ja laager Käsmus

So now I'm finally updating my blog after I was so really annoyed of that it deleted my really awesome previous post. I decided to seperate the topics a bit, so the following posts will be about the first school day and Käsmu, about Sally's and useless and random information, one about the real school... Let's just see what the night will bring.

So that first post for tonight is, as the headline should tell, about the first school day and the camp in Käsmu.

The first school day was just awesome. Okay my whole time till now was awsome. On the 1st of september I actually could have slept really really long, because the welcome cermony started at 11am. But of course, I was to nervous to sleep, so I woke up about 7:30 and didn't know what to do. I had breakfast twice, did my hair and make-up once before and once after showering, dressed nice in probably three different outfits and looked for a handbag or something useful that might fit to my appearance. I just took such a hipster-shopping-bag in the end because it was just black and I just couldn't find anything else. When I went to the school it was just so cool to see everybody dressed so nice. Some people were even wearing the school hats, that look maybe a bit like a sailorman's hat in "more-beautiful". I want to have one also :/ :D And such a cool school ring. Yeah, there are school rings. The 12th graders get them when they graduate, if I understood right. So then I was following all the beautiful people into the Aula, the hall of the school. I even remembered some faces, but of course no names. The ceremony was pretty cool. It started with the National Anthem and the School Anthem, some speeches and singing, acting, playing. It was all in one really nice and I even understood it pretty good because the girl next to me was translating for me. She also guided me the whole day, I was really thankful for that. After the ceremony the whole grade met in a seperate seminar room to announce some important information and to take a photo. It is pretty much impossible to take a photo of 73 people in a room, but somehow our two headteachers got it.

Some of you will maybe wonder about 73 people in one class. Actually we are just a whole grade, not like divided into classes. I will write about that in the following post about school.

I went home about 1 o'clock or something so I had enough time to get my things for Käsmu ready. I went back to school a bit before 3pm. About the camp as it there is actually not soo much to say, more about the people. The houses were a bit... strange, really old, you had to make a fire to warm them up but okay, for 2 nights it was really enough. The camp started of course with some name-games, then sport games, teamwork and the last evening was finished with some weird but really funny and crazy boy-girl-partner-competition-games whatever. I've met so many wonderful people, I love to be here and I think this camp was the best way to meet my new classmates. Outside of school you're probably not so much "the weird new one that isn't understanding anything". I discovered a few types of people, but in the end I can say: I don't think you can create that one stereotype Estonian, not for any country. People are so different but somehow they are the same everywhere. Let me explane, maybe you will understand my confusing logic.

So let's start with the really awesome persons, I am with them like most of the time. Just because they're great. This is the kind of people, who would aaaaalways help you, would always be there to guide you, to talk to you, to translate for you... They just never give you the feeling that you are much different or strange because you can't understand or know everything, even if they are talking in Estonian. They show you that you're kind of interesting and special and this is just really helpful, because in an exchange, when you're understanding like nothing the whole day, it's just sometimes so important to feel yeah, important.

Then the next kind. They don't really know in what side they are standing. Wether they try to talk to you, but then it's ending in awkard silence between each other, or they let others talk to you. The really really best example: Sitting on the same table, my "first best friend, the one I'm always following because she's just great" next to me, next to her an other classmate. He asks her something about me (I can understand when people are talking about me by the way), then she asks me his question :D But actually this situation was kind of cute, because I just started to talk directly to him instead of answering her, and he was just laughing :D

The next type is like "Come to the dark side, we have cookies". They help you if you ask them directly and talk to you if you start, but they actually don't really seem to be intersted. Maybe this is the kind of people we were told about in all preperation things, like "all Estonians are so closed, but if you kind of locked them up and you are friends, then you are going to be friends forever". I will find out about that.

And then of couse there are the people you just don't like, there are always some. Maybe because they seem to don't like you, maybe because you feel like they're fake, maybe because of some strange reasons noboby can tell.

And now you will probably think- But hey, what's the difference to my country? Yeah and that's the point. You can't tell about people after the first meeting, you have to get to know them and their culture and way of living to see the difference. But in this camp I really noticed for the first time, how different people are.

03Sept
2014

Head ööd

Well I wrote a really good post. About my first school day, the camp in Käsmu, the first art lessons. For like one hour. Then I just went to the toilet. My laptop fell asleep or however it is called. Now my whole post is erased. I don't want to write it again. So I will write on friday evening or saturday a really long post about my whole first real estonian week. Have fun with reading then, I'm too tired and annoyed now. Head ööd :D

31August
2014

How to get to Viru Keskus

Well, when I went to Tallinn yesterday I actually just wanted to buy some pants and a bag for school. On my way through Tallinn's street labyrinth I was somehow suddenly standing in the middle of the Vana Linn and really just HAD TO go for a little walk. I'm so sorry Hannah, that I didn't tell you, I was just so fascinated... ^^

So I was in that kind of shopping centre at the Coca Cola Plaza or however it is called and should have gone simply across the street, downstairs under another shopping centre or hotel or whatever and I would have been standing at the busstation Viru Keskus. Of course I didn't ask someone for the way or something, I thought I would remeber the station because I've been there once before, so I just walked. So then I was suddenly standing in Tallinn's Old Town and simply wasn't able to turn around, because I'm just to curious :D So I walked a bit through the Old Town, without having a clue what I saw or where I've been, so here some photos of my strange city tour. Some places are a bit more famous, others less, I skipped the exact discriptions.

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When I was walking back down from that hill with that beautiful sight, I just walked through a really beautiful park, where a festival or something took place. Flowers and skulptures everywhere, I think it was called "Tallinn Lill Festival" or something like that, Flower Festival. On a little stage was a 2-men band playing, I really liked them but I have no clue who they where :D

Tallinn Tallinn Tallinn Tallinn Tallinn

 

When I was back in the "new Tallinn", where the streets are more crowded with cars than with people, my feet and hips (yeah, my hips, I'm like a granny sometimes :D) told me, that they would really like to go home now so I finally asked some people for the way. The first girl I asked was just looking down at me through her dark sunglasses and said "Just walk straight on, then you will find another one to ask" Okay, really helpfull, Aitäh... So I walked straight on and asked a man. He was looking a bit strange, but friendly. Dark hair, a full beard and water blue eyes. The eyes were really cool haha :D I asked him if he was speeking English, because he had a little arabic look and he was looking at me a bit confused when I asked him if he had a second time for me. He came like really close and said "Yeah, english and estonian" with such a really deep and soft voice, scary :D He described the way to me, it was actually really simple, and walked in the same direction, so I had the kind of a feeling when you think the whole time that somebody is watching you :D Yeah so these were my first talks with unfamiliar Estonians ^^ 

Tomorrow I will go to a three days long camp with my grade in Käsmu, let's see how they are acting :D

27August
2014

Kindad ja kingad - The first week

The first week is over now and I really feel the time running.

Today I went for a shopping tour with my hostmum and the older hostsister in Tallinn and later met two other german exchange students. I spent so much money, it's impossible :D But it was really needed. I needed for example some stuff for my room, like a dustbin and some things to organise my schoolstuff and papers. Also I bought clothes for the first school day, because I have to dress a bit nicer than usually, and some warm clothes, wich are pretty expensive. But I had to buy some because I packed my bag for end-summer, not for autumn as it seems to be here now. Yeah it's like raining at least once a day and the sun is like really shy and doesn't really want to show her to us. But it doesn't really matter because I really enjoy my time here.

Apropos nothing else matters, I finally have my guitar with me! We first had to take it from the post office because they didn't bring it to our us, why ever. I was so excited. Till I didn't find my keys. The guitar case was locked and I still have no clue where I put the keys. My parents are searching in the hole house in Germany and I looked like ten times in every bag and pocket I have but we found nothing. So I watched some YouTube videos, took a hairpin and small scissors and felt like a robber when I finally opened the lock of my guitar case :D At least I can practise now ^^

Neljapäeval, so on wednesday, we will meet a YFU Volunteer or so at my school for a first visit. We will ask her about this guitar teacher, who is not like a fulltime-teacher and only takes cash. Hopefully it will be okay with this guy, because otherwise I have no clue how to find a teacher. And I don't want to go to Tallinn by bus once or twice a week, because this can take really long.

My Support Person for example was standing one and a half hour in the bus from Tallinn to Viimsi today because there was just so much traffic. Normally it takes a half hour to get here. Anyways we were having dinner together then and were simply talking for like a hour or something. It was a nice day and a good closure of my first Estonian week.

24August
2014

Tohuvapohu?!

This weekend we did our first trip together. We went to the summerschool in an old maybe fisher village called Käsmu. Summerschool means, that you have all over the day different seminars and lessons about very different and sometimes difficult topics. We joined for example the ones about some psychologic stuff about how you feel time running or not, one about astronomy, one about photography and one like a little concert. I didn't understand that much so I was the whole time sitting there trying to catch some words I knew or walking around with the girls. So I had time to make some photos of the really breathtaking Estonian nature.

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Also I had my daily language lessons, of course :D I learned for example animals with card games and some short useful scentences. I can't really talk yet, but I'm proud that I can understand some words and phrases when Estonians are talking :D I finished my first Estonian book, yeah it's one for very small kids and I had help, but it counts! ^^ I will try to focus a bit on learning vocabulary, so that I can maybe start to talk a bit and can understand more.

We are trying to fix some hobies for me. We visited Sally's Art Studio in Tallinn last week to see if it's good for me or not. There's a good and a bad thing about the studio. The good one: I really like it. It looks very professional and I really would like to try like painting, drawing, photography. The bad thing: It's extremly expensive. If I wanted to do both, painting and photography, I would have to pay like 100€ a month. And that's really too much. I could pay per semester, that would be cheaper, but I would like to try it first if I really like it and if it fits to me so that I could end these lessons in the middle of the semester if I wanted to. So now I have to decide if I do arts or photography or both or nothing and will see then... Also we are searching for a guitar teacher. We visited one guy, sadly he only teaches acoustic. But he gave my hostdad the number of someone who would teach me the electric guitar too. The problem: He is not like an official music teacher, it's more somekind of a freetime job. So we will have to ask YFU if that would be okay, because they will pay my lessons because of the music program. On sports we decided to first wait a few weeks before we fix something for me. I thought about maybe riding or swimming but decided to first ask my future classmates about their hobbies. So I have a good reason and topic to talk to them and then maybe we will do the sport together. Till I found something good, I will join a few dancing lessons with my hostsister. I will have to be carefull, I feel like my hips are even weaker or sicker or whatever because of the missing sports in the last weeks :D

Next week we will meet a YFU lady at the school for like a first visit of the school so that I maybe won't feel completly lost on the first day. Also we will go for a little shopping tour and we really will have to find out about my guitar... It's still not arrived. I'm a bit afraid of the first school day, but hey, at least I will have somthing to talk about :D

 

20August
2014

Läheme koju - We're going home

I finally met my hostfam and got to my new home for the next year. But lets start at the very beginning.

On wednesday, 16.8.2014, at about 6am I met my friends Lea and Alex for the last goodbye. We drove with my parents to Berlin Tegel Airport. To my surprise it wasn't that hard to say goodbye. It was hard to leave my dog alone and see my friends and fam cry, so I cried with them, but it wasn't such an long procedure. So I met Lea from Berlin and some others and we flew together to Frankfurt. There we had a three hour break till we took the next flight to Tallinn. It was kind of cool and special in Frankfurt, because all German exchange students were wearing their turquoise YFU shirts so that everybody knew immediatly where we were going.

Our teamers picked us up in Tallinn and took us to Kurtna, where the Post Arrival Orientation took place. We met people from like all over the world: Belgium, Netherland, France, Switzerland, Mexico, Argentinia... Pretty funny how many people from different countries are visiting Estonia for a year. 

The camp was really fun. We discussed about everything important for our exchange year, had language lessons and did so weird funny and strange things and games :D We also met our Supportion People, mine is living in Tallinn. It's a really good feeling to have somebody you know in the beginning, to know you can tell her everything.

On the last day of the camp we met our families. You can't imagine how bad excitement can feel. The teamers took us for a little walk and games to detract us, but when you see car after car and family after family arriving you are just about to explode from excitement. Then finally we got back to the camp house, sang "Mu mütsil on kolm nurka", okay we tried to sing- we were actually to nervous- and then had lunch together with our fams. Just great. 

It was such a good feeling to meet them, I felt received in that family from the first moment and can't imagine something better than to live with them for that year.

Kurtna

We drove first to a "cliff" on the cost on the west of Tallinn. It was actually not really high and the weather was awful, but it looked impressing anyway. I really like all that nature, when we drove home there were forest around us nearly all the time, really cool. 

On our "first way home" I was tought new words and stuff by my hostsister Monika, it's probably really funny to see her teaching me :D So now, after the camp and her car lessons, I can introduce myself, count, know some colours and food, can name parts of the body and directions. Okay, the most things aren't really sure in my hat, but as you can see: my room is full oft post-its and vocabulary.

Also we are reading a book for children together, whenever we do something with the family they write some sentences for me and some vocabulary so that I can say a few words about what we are doing. Post its are on pretty much the whole furniture, so that the girls can learn English and I can learn Estonian. And it works pretty good I think :D

Today we where in the office to apply for my Estonian ID. I'm so looking forward to becoming my own really Estonian ID card haha :D

My room

That's my room. Just one word: Phantastic. It's really really big, I have an own bathroom and a big room for my clothes... Just great.

15August
2014

Goodbye my almost lover(s) - Die letzte Nacht

Another little lyric headline :D

This will be a german post, just about some goodbye and contact info and so on. Just if somebody worries about what all the text means :D I'm just better at writing in german.

 

Also! Morgen früh, und zwar echt früh, gehts endlich los für mich! Um 8:40 Uhr von Tegel, um 13 Uhr irgendwas von Frankfurt Main nach Tallinn. Ich bin viel zu aufgeregt um auf Rechtschreibfehler und schönen Ausdruck zu achten, verzeiht.

Ich verabschiede mich also schonmal.

Ich möchte allen Danke sagen, die hinter mir gestanden haben, stehen und stehen werden. Danke an alle, die mich dazu ermutigt haben, nach Estland zu gehen, auch wenn ich miese Phasen hatte. Danke für eure Abschiedsgeschenke und schönen Abschiede. Danke fürs einfach dagewesen sein.

Ich wollte meinen Eltern erst ein persönliches Briefchen schreiben, aber ich finde das hier irgendwie cooler:

Danke, dass ihr mir das ermöglicht! Ich kann mich an keinen Moment erinnern, an dem ihr bezüglich des Jahres nicht hinter mir gestnaden habt. Morgen wird es Zeit, loszulassen und sich jemand neues zum Geschirrspüler ausräumen zu suchen :D Ich möchte mein Jahr und meine Erfahrung mit euch teilen und euch an den schönen und auch an den weniger schönen Momenten teilhaben lassen. Aber erst im Nachhineín, sonst verpasse ich ja die Hälfte, weil ich im Internet hänge :D DANKE! <3

Apropos teilen:

Die deutsche Kerze wird, nach Musikprojekttradition, immer leuchten, wenn ich mich an den PC setze und das deutsche Facebook besuche, Skype und so weiter. Ich will eigentlich den Kontakt so gering wie möglich halten, also wird dieser Blog praktisch für Infos zwischendurch. Das heißt aber nicht, dass ich nicht mit euch schreiben oder skypen oder Briefchen schreiben will! :D <3

15August
2014

To understand the future you have to go back in time

Yeah, the headline is from Pitbull lyrics :D

I would like to write a little english introduction, just to give you, who don't understand german, a little more knowledge about what I wrote yet.

Well, to start with me:

I'm Jenny, 15, from Germany and will do an exchange year in Estonia from tomorrow till next July. I'm in the YFU Music Program, which was the main reason to choose Estonia.

My hostfam lives in Viimsi near the estonian capital Tallinn. My family means: My hostdad Andres, hostmum Alis and the two girls Adel and Monika- and the Golden Retriever Musi. They/ We are living in something that looks in Google Maps like a suburb or so, small and green but also with somekind of a city centre and so on, pretty perfect. Short way to the Baltic Sea included :D Also they own a country house where you can watch the sunsets over a bog, yes I know it sounds perfect.

In May I went to a preperation camp near Hamburg to meet other exchange students and learn how to integrate into the new culture. Well, the most important sentence of the week: "So that the lights shall never go out again" Ask Google for Rachel Andresen.

My parents opened a bank account at the ING DiBa and authorized me to draw money with my VISA and EC card.

We planned some hobbies in Estonia. My host sisters are dancing Disco just as me, so I think I will join them for a few times. But I don't think I will dance all the year, my bones are just too hurt. Maybe I will start riding or so. Also I'm registert at Sally's Artstudio in Tallinn and will take guitar lessons.

My school will be the Viimsi Keskkool.

I had a little Goodbye-Party and a little holiday trip with my best friends. I will keep in touch with "my germans" via Facebook (but I will have a new Facebook account for Estonia) and Skype one time a week or every second.

I have a lactose intolerance, but don't worry: There are enough lactose free products in Estonia too and my family is openminded for everything :D

I sent my electric guitar with some clothes per mail to Estonia, for about 35€.

I also wrote packing lists in german, but I don't want to translate everything now. If you want to see my lists, just text me, the contact data is on the right :D

Well and that was the really short copy- without all that little talks about worries and goals and so on, just some facts. The rest will be written later :D

 

14August
2014

Packliste III.- Der Koffer

Ich habe heute meinen Koffer gepackt und festgestellt, dass die Idee, viel im Karton mit der Gitarre zu verschicken, sehr sehr gut war. Mein Kleiderschrank ist fast leer, ich musste mich von nichts trennen, was ich nicht sowieso hierlassen will und musste nichtmal großartig quetschen um den Koffer zuzubekommen. Nichtmal draufsetzen musste ich mich. Hier also mal eine Liste von allem, was da so drin ist:

- Gastgeschenke (muss ich wohl nicht einzeln aufzählen, das ist sehr individuell)

- Photos als Andenken

- 1 kleine Tasche (am besten gleich ein bisschen was reinmachen, dann nimmt das keinen weiteren Platz weg. Aber nicht so viel, dass die Tasche beult!)

- Sohlen gegen Käsefüße (ja, das ist eins meiner Spezialproblemchen :D)

- Herpespads (man weiß ja nie, auch das zählt unter Spezialproblemchen)

- Mädchenzeug (Tampons/ Binden/ Slipeinlagen: am besten von allem etwas, die Natur überrascht einen gerne mal wenn der Stresspegel steigt. Evtl. Krimskrams wie Rasierer- nicht ins Handgepäck!-, Schmuck, Parfüm, Pille usw.)

Klamotten:

- 2 dicke Strickjacken

- 1 dicker Pullover

- 3 dünnere Strickjacken, 1 Blazer

- 10 T-Shirts

- 15 Tops

- 3 Sporttops

- 2 Sporthosen, kurz und lang

- 4 kurze Hosen

- 3 lange Hosen/ Jeans

- kurze Hose und Schlabbershirt zum Schlafen

- 3 Gürtel

- 2 Mützen

- 5 BH's, 2 SportBH's

- 2 Paar dicke fette Socken

- 3 Tubetops

- alles an restlicher Unterwäsche was ich noch finden konnte

- 1 Paar Sportschuhe

- 1 Paar Ballerinas

- 1 Paar wie auch immer man sie nennt, geschlossene Schuhe mit ein bissl Absatz halt :D

- 1 Paar schicke Schuhe

- 1 Paar Badelatschen/ Flipflops wie auch immer

- Bikini

 

Ja, das passt da alles rein! :D

Tipp: Alles rollen und im Nofall mit Gummis zusammenhalten. Gerollt kann man alles besser stapeln und es nimmt weniger Platz weg. Mit Unterwäsche kann man super Lücken und Schuhe stopfen.

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